what is love?
well, not much has happened since jon died, and of course, i keep on trying to get someone to go out with, i came back to el paso, mainly to get rid of the thought, that i would be living alone, dare i say it again, i have cried and those tears are nothing more than just another security blanket for un-answered wishes, my last two lovers, if i could categorize them as such, were just merely an illusion, as far as the perfect man, armando, on one hand was just an asshole, that lives in the same town as i do, but he obviously did not understand what the meaning of the word wait was. the other guy, whose name i shall not mention, had his eyes closed the whole time, not being able to see what the meaning of true love was, he obviously thought, he could own me, but i gave up on him, mainly because i don't put up with un-answered love, i may have triggered the weakness of jealousy within him, but as i think, it served him right, he had the chance to have me, and now he's out there probably grovelling at his ex's feet. like i've told my friend yary, he'll come back crawling if he loves me, if not, i'm not going to wait any longer than i can breathe, as for now, this is all i have to say. laters