all in my head
it's the day i realize i broke my own heart. everything i swim in is my own design and i can't swallow it. all of these choices and none of them are right and i wonder where to go from here. he says don't forget it's all in your head and sometimes i remember it is, but the feelings are still real anyway. i lose either way i go so i sit still now. i wish i could feel something, anything, besides this overwhelming tidal wave. maybe i'll look up someday soon and see how none of this is the same anymore. i wiish it were sooner, but i know it will be later...