not to be too emo but....
I think I am much like my Amaryllis. It went dormant, didn't bloom for 3 years. All of the sudden, for no particular reason, it bloomed once again this year. I was awkward and withdrawn for years. Well, I'm still a little awkward, but that's a different story. I'm not the same girl I used to be, nor do I want to be. That girl was pathetic and a complete waste of space. If you think I'm the same girl, you will be sadly mistaken. I don't hold my breath, and I don't hold back. One day I woke up, quite literally, and decided I didn't like myself anymore and I needed a change. So I did. Change is good. I mean, sometimes I've gotten myself into a lot of trouble because of this, but I can handle it. That's the thing. I am much stronger than I used to be and I can handle this. I can handle much more than what I've been dealt recently. Fuck all of you that keep trying to hold me back. I don't need you anymore.