I'm looking for answers from the great beyond...
You know it's bad when you feel enthusiastic that you've managed to eat a slice and half of toast four hours ago.... I know I said I wanted to lose weight this year - but TRUST me this was not in the plan #laughs#.
I know it's more a mental thing that a physical one but I have no idea how anyone with an eating disorder manages it...I think my last meal was Monday night and I came to yesterday evening passed out on the kitchen floor ( I remember standing up and then my eyes open and one cheek's flat to the floor tile)- lucklily the Boyf was out so didn't cause him mad panic - also luckily I'd only got a plastic bottle of water #sheepish grin#.I feel like such a wuss, I'm supposed to be tougher than this...really I am. I'm a Jackson - we chew nails and spit rust...
There's so much stuff I want to see and do - from the 'small' stuff - like the Requiem games though to the 'bigger' things travel with the Boyf and so far this year I've spent a fortnight of January sick... The Boyf made me an offer between the tonsilitus and the stomach bug about next year we skip January?...he and I NEVER have good Januarys they always go wrong...At this rate if we make it to Jaunary 2008 as a couple I'm going into hibernation with him until Febuary 2008!
Right now I have to admit it I'm very low...need to kick my brain into gear and get moving...just got to get the body to comply. #grins# Resistance is futile? And any and all suggestions appreciated...
I know it's more a mental thing that a physical one but I have no idea how anyone with an eating disorder manages it...I think my last meal was Monday night and I came to yesterday evening passed out on the kitchen floor ( I remember standing up and then my eyes open and one cheek's flat to the floor tile)- lucklily the Boyf was out so didn't cause him mad panic - also luckily I'd only got a plastic bottle of water #sheepish grin#.I feel like such a wuss, I'm supposed to be tougher than this...really I am. I'm a Jackson - we chew nails and spit rust...
There's so much stuff I want to see and do - from the 'small' stuff - like the Requiem games though to the 'bigger' things travel with the Boyf and so far this year I've spent a fortnight of January sick... The Boyf made me an offer between the tonsilitus and the stomach bug about next year we skip January?...he and I NEVER have good Januarys they always go wrong...At this rate if we make it to Jaunary 2008 as a couple I'm going into hibernation with him until Febuary 2008!
Right now I have to admit it I'm very low...need to kick my brain into gear and get moving...just got to get the body to comply. #grins# Resistance is futile? And any and all suggestions appreciated...