Insomnia
So like I've been having problems sleeping recently, the worst bout was last night when I woke up for no reason at around 2am and couldn't sleep until around 4am. And I also had a stomachache at that time which might explain the difficulty to sleep. But at the same time I had this anxious, panicked feeling, like something bad was about to happen and I had to force myself not to think further because I kept imagining worse case scenarios. And I had the feeling that if I imagined the scenarios they'd happen. But it was so hard to control my thoughts not to think. I think I'm slowly becoming neurotic ahahaha...
Mom says I worry too much about work, until it's starting to affect my lifestyle. Maybe I do :( I still need to train myself not to take everything so seriously. I mean, I can worry and worry about something and in the end it never happens anyway or it solves itself out. S'not the end of the world when it comes to work problems. But sometimes it's not that I -want- to worry about it. It comes too naturally. I look forward to the day I can finally live for myself and not for the work or for anyone else. It's not only about work that I worry about tho. There's so many else. And when you lump everything together life just seems so overwhelming.
Sigh.
Mom says I worry too much about work, until it's starting to affect my lifestyle. Maybe I do :( I still need to train myself not to take everything so seriously. I mean, I can worry and worry about something and in the end it never happens anyway or it solves itself out. S'not the end of the world when it comes to work problems. But sometimes it's not that I -want- to worry about it. It comes too naturally. I look forward to the day I can finally live for myself and not for the work or for anyone else. It's not only about work that I worry about tho. There's so many else. And when you lump everything together life just seems so overwhelming.
Sigh.