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This will be my last journal entry for a long time, I think. I am leaving my home and moving out into a new one and I really have no desire or temptation to bring a computer with me. I'm tired of the routine and I am begging for something new, something else. I guess that's why I am leaving so abruptly. I had a plan to leave in a few months and then a few months became a few weeks and now a few weeks is a few days. I just need new scenery, new breath.
I suppose this is a slight goodbye, or maybe a fare well, or whatever it is you want it to be. If you're reading this, then you most likely care, or its just some random boredom that brought you here, in which case, you can leave, because there is nothing here for you. To those who are my friends in some slight way, it is for you. I am thankful for all that you brought me in the past and I will do my best to remember the words we shared and the feelings you brought to me. I remember you all, and even if I don't want to, I probably always will. I am leaving because of a feeling inside that I cannot explain, cannot describe. I just need a change, or I might become my fears and be alone forever.
I am leaving and going to a new town with old friends and I cannot look back and I will not look back. Maybe you will see me around and feel free to say hello or tell me how you hate me still or whatever. But this will be the last time I use this place to find some words that I love so dearly. I appreciate this place so very much, an outlet for all my frustration, all my sorrow.
It was my pleasure to give you my words, although I know not many of you understood them. These are my last words for a long time. Please only reply if you really must, only if you truly and honestly need to tell me something before I am gone. And with that here are the last words for me in this place:
Would you love me if I lost everything, would you love me if I was a failure?
They might tell you, but do not believe it. Time does not heal all wounds, it will never numb all the pain. There are some feelings that have been born inside of you and they will live there forever. Do not run from them or push them aside. Open your soul and ebmrace the sorrow, because that is all that you have. Love yourself and love your life; and every day, just once, take the time to look in the mirror and never forget who you are and what you are. Don't sell yourself short; become what you want to be, but never sell your soul for a dream. A soulless dream is nothing more than an empty promise that God will not hear. Believe in yourself and believe in your friends. You and they are all you have.
Good-bye~
I suppose this is a slight goodbye, or maybe a fare well, or whatever it is you want it to be. If you're reading this, then you most likely care, or its just some random boredom that brought you here, in which case, you can leave, because there is nothing here for you. To those who are my friends in some slight way, it is for you. I am thankful for all that you brought me in the past and I will do my best to remember the words we shared and the feelings you brought to me. I remember you all, and even if I don't want to, I probably always will. I am leaving because of a feeling inside that I cannot explain, cannot describe. I just need a change, or I might become my fears and be alone forever.
I am leaving and going to a new town with old friends and I cannot look back and I will not look back. Maybe you will see me around and feel free to say hello or tell me how you hate me still or whatever. But this will be the last time I use this place to find some words that I love so dearly. I appreciate this place so very much, an outlet for all my frustration, all my sorrow.
It was my pleasure to give you my words, although I know not many of you understood them. These are my last words for a long time. Please only reply if you really must, only if you truly and honestly need to tell me something before I am gone. And with that here are the last words for me in this place:
Would you love me if I lost everything, would you love me if I was a failure?
They might tell you, but do not believe it. Time does not heal all wounds, it will never numb all the pain. There are some feelings that have been born inside of you and they will live there forever. Do not run from them or push them aside. Open your soul and ebmrace the sorrow, because that is all that you have. Love yourself and love your life; and every day, just once, take the time to look in the mirror and never forget who you are and what you are. Don't sell yourself short; become what you want to be, but never sell your soul for a dream. A soulless dream is nothing more than an empty promise that God will not hear. Believe in yourself and believe in your friends. You and they are all you have.
Good-bye~