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[sylaa]

My aunt is a big advocate for this program called Year UP and im supposed to meet up with them friday iuts this corprate training thing, i really dont want to go there I dont i dont want to do corporate but, theres mom mom wants me to do this and she will make me because if i dont my life will be hell literally untill she snaps me in half and i end up doing it anyways i wish she could accept things as they are i wish she could see that im trying i want her to see me as an adult instead of swicthing back and fourth as her whim suits her i want her to know that i AM trying that i would like her support and some sort of praise but not just for the things that she wants but for something im interested in
hell even me being me isint good enough. shes nuts frustrating and makes me sad to the worst point
but i know i cant win, not yet i cant win