bright and early on a Sunday morning
its 9h15 on Sunday, I've been up till 6h30...I'm not too sure what to do with myself Livejournal seemed like the answer.
The reason I was up at 6h30...the quartet had a breakfast show at some hotel...woo hoo?
I'm a bitch, people think about it...its so true I've come to accept that fact.
I feel like I've ditched all my friends...I never talk to James anymore an I miss him so much...and Mindy...I love her so much!!! Chantal and Chantal who are both in the west right now...And never mind I have problems hanging out with my friends here...Robert and Danielle...I keep ditching or dont have time for...I'm so mean...I dont even see Janelle and she lives down the street...Roberts down Provencher which is pretty freaking close as well...I really feel inconsiderate or something and I dont like it...Andrea and Cody too...where are they? a bus ride away...yet...I could apologize and try to make it better but I cant...cause school in crazy, the bands recording next weekend...the quartet is there...the stupid choir I dont like as well...school is so freaking crazy!
Last night with Janelle and Danielle was fun though, I adore them and it felt great to hang out with them! Dirty Dancing Havana nights...so good...so sorry I judged before knowing.
Stupid comedy movies that arent that great but I love and Boy bands...you know why I love them? because they're happy!!! They are happy things! they dont need to be "artsy" and "intelligent" or "wow! thats talent!" to be good...seriously...like why the fuck do you think I'm happy half the time...because of those things...everythings so freakin depressing lately...its always been, but I get just a little bit happier with those stupid happy things...
The hope in relationship I once had...being my cousin Joelle and Alain...has ended...basically I see no hope for relationships anymore, or a point...not that I saw much a a point before. I speak truly only of myself you guys...dont think I'm bashing everyone in a relationship. I just have this unatainable picture of the perfect relationship, its so hard to explain... I dont even know what it is...Conclusion: That is why crushes on hot hockey players is the perfect answer...I can imagine a great wonderful life...and nothing can screw it up, because I'll never meet them!!
In other news, my friend...whos 20...just had a stroke...or something...he had seizure and can't speak...its not the best news ever...I'm scared to go see him....I was scared to see Joelle...I dont know what to say or what to do in those situations...I just want to break down and cry with the person...but you cant...cause they'll cry...and I dont want them to cry because I cried...
When will I start making sence to myself? that is a very good question
So the world is going to shits...I think God or the gods or whoever everyone believes in or dont believe in...Should have another huge flood and anihilate everything and everyone on earth...then restart the human race out of scratch and make sure they dont get knowledge of power...Thats pretty much what people do, think about it...whats your goal in life? I betcha most of you, its being a rich something...or a powerful something...or both...maybe you want to make a difference in the world...whatever they'res gonna be a want a need for a power a selfishness...that everyone has, not matter how much you deny it, we're all in this alone...this game we call life, we sometimes help each other on the way, but only if itll help ourselves in return.
Another thing thats super happy...Christmas music...this girl once told me to never make a christmas album...I dont think I will, not because she told me, but because they are actually so lame...but see lame things, and simple things where you dont have to think, you jsut need to sit and be happy...thats what keeps me striving...see maybe I will make a christmas cd one day...cause then people can be happy because of the lameless of it...
Notice how most people, and I'm saying most I dont want to assume anything either, just writing down the thoughts, but some people that dont like things like stupid movies, and wont give a good listen to a boy band...are usually depressing...many a times, or they just think they're somthing they're not, remember I'm saying some, because I know some like that...many...but again those are the people I know, you might not and you might know people who arent giving things like that a chance and that are completely opposite...whatever just writing down nothing really I doubt anyone came this far into this bits and pieces of info on this strange thing discovered, livejournal...which is another useless invention of man, just to make life easier...or something...now we get to waste time on here instead of doing homework and instead of writing in our own diaries...cause diaries are lame now...or the word or something..
Wow that was a whole lot of babbling...but thats what I am, the babbling bitch
later days! (man I miss that show! kid shows are also a very happy thing...)
The reason I was up at 6h30...the quartet had a breakfast show at some hotel...woo hoo?
I'm a bitch, people think about it...its so true I've come to accept that fact.
I feel like I've ditched all my friends...I never talk to James anymore an I miss him so much...and Mindy...I love her so much!!! Chantal and Chantal who are both in the west right now...And never mind I have problems hanging out with my friends here...Robert and Danielle...I keep ditching or dont have time for...I'm so mean...I dont even see Janelle and she lives down the street...Roberts down Provencher which is pretty freaking close as well...I really feel inconsiderate or something and I dont like it...Andrea and Cody too...where are they? a bus ride away...yet...I could apologize and try to make it better but I cant...cause school in crazy, the bands recording next weekend...the quartet is there...the stupid choir I dont like as well...school is so freaking crazy!
Last night with Janelle and Danielle was fun though, I adore them and it felt great to hang out with them! Dirty Dancing Havana nights...so good...so sorry I judged before knowing.
Stupid comedy movies that arent that great but I love and Boy bands...you know why I love them? because they're happy!!! They are happy things! they dont need to be "artsy" and "intelligent" or "wow! thats talent!" to be good...seriously...like why the fuck do you think I'm happy half the time...because of those things...everythings so freakin depressing lately...its always been, but I get just a little bit happier with those stupid happy things...
The hope in relationship I once had...being my cousin Joelle and Alain...has ended...basically I see no hope for relationships anymore, or a point...not that I saw much a a point before. I speak truly only of myself you guys...dont think I'm bashing everyone in a relationship. I just have this unatainable picture of the perfect relationship, its so hard to explain... I dont even know what it is...Conclusion: That is why crushes on hot hockey players is the perfect answer...I can imagine a great wonderful life...and nothing can screw it up, because I'll never meet them!!
In other news, my friend...whos 20...just had a stroke...or something...he had seizure and can't speak...its not the best news ever...I'm scared to go see him....I was scared to see Joelle...I dont know what to say or what to do in those situations...I just want to break down and cry with the person...but you cant...cause they'll cry...and I dont want them to cry because I cried...
When will I start making sence to myself? that is a very good question
So the world is going to shits...I think God or the gods or whoever everyone believes in or dont believe in...Should have another huge flood and anihilate everything and everyone on earth...then restart the human race out of scratch and make sure they dont get knowledge of power...Thats pretty much what people do, think about it...whats your goal in life? I betcha most of you, its being a rich something...or a powerful something...or both...maybe you want to make a difference in the world...whatever they'res gonna be a want a need for a power a selfishness...that everyone has, not matter how much you deny it, we're all in this alone...this game we call life, we sometimes help each other on the way, but only if itll help ourselves in return.
Another thing thats super happy...Christmas music...this girl once told me to never make a christmas album...I dont think I will, not because she told me, but because they are actually so lame...but see lame things, and simple things where you dont have to think, you jsut need to sit and be happy...thats what keeps me striving...see maybe I will make a christmas cd one day...cause then people can be happy because of the lameless of it...
Notice how most people, and I'm saying most I dont want to assume anything either, just writing down the thoughts, but some people that dont like things like stupid movies, and wont give a good listen to a boy band...are usually depressing...many a times, or they just think they're somthing they're not, remember I'm saying some, because I know some like that...many...but again those are the people I know, you might not and you might know people who arent giving things like that a chance and that are completely opposite...whatever just writing down nothing really I doubt anyone came this far into this bits and pieces of info on this strange thing discovered, livejournal...which is another useless invention of man, just to make life easier...or something...now we get to waste time on here instead of doing homework and instead of writing in our own diaries...cause diaries are lame now...or the word or something..
Wow that was a whole lot of babbling...but thats what I am, the babbling bitch
later days! (man I miss that show! kid shows are also a very happy thing...)