I Am A One Man Wrecking Machine.
Like driftwood caught in a current, I feel like my life has been swept onto a path I cannot and for the most part do not want to break. I'm doing the school thing, which between school itself, homework, and papers, takes up a decent portion of my time. Couple that with the full time work schedule and my new living arrangements and finding time to do anything is hard. It's ok though, I'm getting a lot done and moving toward my ultimate life goal and all that goodness, so that's nice.
One thing, one BIG thing, does kinda stick, in my craw though.... My friends. I feel like a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad person lately. Missing get togethers, not being able to answer the phone, forgetting to call people back, and anything like that. My mind is just filled with the things going on right at that moment that I forget about everything else, or people will call me and I'm already busy or tired, or whatever.
I just feel like I'm letting my friends down and it makes me ill. I don't want my friends to lose faith in me, or trust, or anything like that. I just want you all to bear with me, and understand that this is just the way it's going to be for a while, doing school and work and all. I miss you all so much, and I want to be there for everything, but I can't. Just keep the faith and keep an eye out for me, I'm still going to be there for some things, just not as much as before. You guys are some of the most important people in my life, never forget.
One thing, one BIG thing, does kinda stick, in my craw though.... My friends. I feel like a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad person lately. Missing get togethers, not being able to answer the phone, forgetting to call people back, and anything like that. My mind is just filled with the things going on right at that moment that I forget about everything else, or people will call me and I'm already busy or tired, or whatever.
I just feel like I'm letting my friends down and it makes me ill. I don't want my friends to lose faith in me, or trust, or anything like that. I just want you all to bear with me, and understand that this is just the way it's going to be for a while, doing school and work and all. I miss you all so much, and I want to be there for everything, but I can't. Just keep the faith and keep an eye out for me, I'm still going to be there for some things, just not as much as before. You guys are some of the most important people in my life, never forget.