update
Well,
Its been a while since my last post, to be exact 10 weeks.
A lot can happen in that time.
My social life has completely changed. I go out more. It's good, really good. :) I plan to put my videos on YouTube so people can see my many adventures. lol.
My dating life has changed as well. I was dating some kid. I should have known it wasn't going to go anywhere, but i needed someone, i felt too lonely. I broke up with him. This guy i met, he's great, but nothing can happen between us. Im afraid he likes me. ::i like him too::... Why does this have to be so darn complicated. ::smiles:: I can't help but think of him. ::slaps self:: Nothing can happen, nothing.
My ex doesn't understand anything anymore. Good news: I stop thinking about him every moment, i can go days not speaking to him and be fine;even weeks, i stop caring too much, he's still the only person who knows everything about me... Bad news: The thought of us getting back together keeps me from exploring, he's still the only person who knows everything about me.
There is this man, Chris. He is located in Chicago. He likes me. But again nothing will happen. I don't like him like that.
Why is it that i feel so unattractive, unworthy...Random: my belly button smells nice..., I don't think guys should even talk to me in a certain way like flirting, I might break your heart and i am so afraid of that; i don't want to.
Im writing again. A LOT has happened family wise that has me writing, along with other reasons as well.
I thought i found a friend in this guy that i've known for almost three years, but i was proved wrong. ;;stupid::
I like to watch The 4400 and Law and Order:SVU, oh and Degrassi.. oh and South of Nowhere
My favorite movies are Shop GIrl, Cruel Intensions, Fight Club, Manic, The Painted Veil, American History X, The Illusionist, Red Dragon, The Professional, there are more, but i don't want to write more.
My favorite actors are Edward Norton, Johnny Depp, Steve Martin, Drew Barrymore...
I lack sleep.
If someone reads this, respond.
Im bored and not sleepy.
I start school on Thursday. woot.
Ok, im gone
-sandipants