BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FOOOOOOOOOOK
cEeEE i only come here . half assed..
half assed the way i never Liive my Life SheeSh ...
yeahsUm things are okays .. did the chillin wiht my girls this weekEnd ..!! drank realxed missed drew tho . far away thing isnt too coOOl.. i worked out insanely .. i muST LooSe alil MOrE .. im likeing my self alil more everyday dono why tho.. COnfedene is a bigthing i need . .. my freinds are the greatest i tell them thing and im not really concered how they will reacT ya know im Just Honest ,. IM HONEST .... i tell alot to people i guesi shouldnt ......
i explained to drew alot of my ex alot about rob i assuming now wasnt to much of a GooD thing bu thast me i want him knowing shit imformation is okay .. soOO i tryed the freidns thing wi roB witCh my girls whO ReaD this KNOWWW its really jsut me being blah im nice and i want him as sa freind ... BUT he canot do it .. we tryed he tends to call alil to much stiLL i i dono i try i say You know im with someon im Hones ti say we canot be togther but why mUst that be a RemindeR in a conVerstaioN ... why do i need to repeat .... WHy start yelling .. why Just hang up Why didnt i just hang UP* wtFFFffff no i need to give my reasiong riight .. i need my point acros cause im sick of feeling like tha bad guy whe its not my fault its life * shIt happends y00 !
as i need to tell drewalso over n over that life is gona be okay and things will get beeter .. i se the glass half empty not half FuLL .. Im excited as FoOK for my lil vaction i like my relaxng drives to pa . i like the atmopshere i like spending tYme with him why do i need to explain all that .. I DONT . BUT I Doo i explain my self til im BLue but YET im still the bad Guy*** i get wakey comments like i feel bad For you and himfor how you treat people more or less i jsut treat my ex that way CAUSE ITS MY ex .. but no thats not troo cause if somone Pisses me OFF i let it be known why always have always wiLL ......
I my self am TuFF ruF around the edges really but i take allot personaL .. many close to me know this .. its a fact i get upset easY and i dono why , certian things just stiCk in my heaD .. i assume rob is buggin cause he b day is next week im Soo not giving mixed signals and i am jsut stuck i tryed cuttign all ties and the ni gave in cause i felt bad and its coolfreinds are More goodER but this isnt !
BTW i know kerry dont read her lj much and momalish is all oVer the plaCe ... n CATHYYYa open lj muCh ? Or TimmaY wEEe SKipyiDe DoO guss were for arT ThOoO *JuMper always a a bit bUsY ** oH my KatZ hUn iD luve to se Your Smile about NOW >> ** : ) but does are the ones who read this ofte n who KnOw me forme what im about .... *SHurgs * and im thank Ful i have you guys . to vent to talk to smile to be mee to act me and teLL my Borign stories tOo whO ListEN to my rambling! .. i doo see somthiing with drew and i dono what it is im not trying to figure it out ... cause im happy w him and i wanna leave it as the more i try to loK deeP its jstu not MORE gooder ** things are . the more i dont se him the MOre I CANOT WAIT too see him neXt* .. i dono why cant thigns jsut flowwwwwwwwwW gawd damit .. Jsut Flow.. blows like the soft gental breeeeeSeEe ** erRrRRRrRr
cALGON TAKE ME AWAY
O na GooD notE im getin 2 new clients More WooRk == more moneY for I. ya thats soOO GooD for me i need to be more busyeR hela yeaHHHHHHHHH !