New semester

[sygmus]

A new semester is here. It doesn't seem like it'll be terribly rough, though I will want to be sure to study art history quite a bit. Actually I think the hardest class this year surprisingly will be Acting. Ugh. So far we've done nothing but these little exercises that have you thinking up stuff on the spot. Couple that with dancing around in

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this comment is long and pointless, sorry.

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Really, I've been swinging to both sides of the spectrum with being shy and being outgoing all my life. I was really out there in elementary school, really shy in middle school, then more outgoing in high school (and college). Recently I've been trying to be more outgoing because if I can act however I want in public normally, it'll come more naturally to me when I cosplay.

HOW LAME IS THAT? (You can laugh, it's okay.) So now I try my best to do things I like to do (like sing and dance), but I would never do in public (because I suck at them! XD) because it would be too embarrassing. I'm finally starting to have a good time with it. I figure, so what if people think I'm strange? Can they deny that I'm enjoying life and having a good time? If they want to make fun of my unusual behavior, let them! I'll still enjoy myself!

.......but then again, most people that see me will probably never see me again or are driving by too quick to recognize me! =P

I guess I'm trying to say, just try to enjoy yourself, whatever you do. The more you just try to be natural, maybe the more fun you'll have with it. And well, if you're just very shy, maybe you can somehow work with that!

(And I know EXACTLY what you mean about cosplaying! Most people, even people who have known me for years won't recognize me in a wig, so I feel like I am given this great freedom when I cosplay!)

Re: this comment is long and pointless, sorry.

[sygmus]

Nuu, don't say your comment is pointless, because it isn't. I think I was always kind of a reserved kid and it just got worse. But you're right, it's more worthwhile to do fun things at the risk of looking odd. Singing is very fun, and when I'm alone I randomly change my voice trying to speak like someone I heard in a cartoon or video game (just the other day I was trying to do english Rock Lee). I love professional voice actors, and while my chosen path is leaning toward the art side of cartoons, it's probably handy to know a dose of both drawing and acting. Like Disney.

I just can't shake the thought of embarassment though. I'm just not much of an extrovert. Also, I'm not much of a quick thinker, things have to be planned out. For instance, I typed and erased quite a few sentences in this very post. Everything I'm saying has been carefully edited and re-read to ensure that it doesn't make me look stupid to you. But one of my in-class exercises was, like I said, make a dance based on your feelings. "Whatever you're feeling at one moment or another, let it out naturally and the creative spirit inside you will take care of it." Yeah, that's not happening for me.