Day off and I still get up early...
I....went to bed about 4, got up at 8. *Stares* WHY am I not tired at the moment?! *Looks at coffee* Oh, yeah...
Anywho. I was a lazy bum and didn't update my LJ yesterday. Gomen. I know my life is a thrill a moment and everyone's on the edge of their seats, waiting to see what I do next.............................but fuck off. ^_^v
Sins-committed.org finally, FIN-AL-LY has MySQL although I can't install anything. *Glares* *INhales* AKLDFHSELKFHEALKFMASFMEOHWSEFAMSFKANGFEIFJOIAJDIADMANFLEKNTLASMDAMLFAPFDJNAKLFNELFMADARLARLGKENMGN!!! *pant pant* Okay, I'm good now. I also tried to make a layout...it came out pretty meh. I want something ass-kicking but I'm sorta out of sources for pictures [of Diru] because 1.) People ask that you email them and I just..don't want to do that or 2.) All my good galleries are of ONE member or 3.) All the pictures are from three or more years ago. v_v I'm too shy to join LJ communities but...I fear I may have to, and even then, I haven't really "struck gold". I downloaded some YUMMY Kyo scans but...I want all the boys in my layout. :(
Haw...I asked my dad this morning how much it had cost to adopt Brina, FULLY knowing [or at least I hope knowing/remembering O_o] that I still want to adopt my own dog, and he talked to me like it was okay for me to do that. I EVEN said, "Because I was looking at some adoption sites..." And the subject went on until Aislinn decided to be a beast. v_v SLKFJejf...My still-best defence is that Bekki, who is unemployed, lazy, selfish and stupid, has a BAY-BEE and I, who am employed, considerate, AND responsible, am not allowed to have my own dog? *Sneezes for the third time now* WTF?! Anyway...yesh. So, guilt trip on them all. Don't think it doesn't make me feel bad making them feel bad..........but it's truly not fair. Gah, I know...I'm pittiful and pathetic but...*Shrugs* I can't help it, when I want something....I want it.
Speaking of wanting things...I have very, VERY fresh motivation for wanting to become a singer. It has really nothing to do with me, but someone I feel I need to save...to not let down. Gahh...I won't go into details, but...*nods* She's worth it.
Gahh..I'm all sniffly now because of sneezing like..five times. I NEVER do that...I hope I'm not getting sick. :( *Sighs* And I just remembered...it makes my stomach hurt seeing that Diru is going to be in Berlin...I don't know why. Probably because of all the more people I know getting to go see them while I sit here, in America, praying that maybe ONE DAY Dir en grey will decide that America doesn't suck and maybe they'll go to New York. Stephanie and I were actually discussing this last night...if they came to New York...I would do absolutely everything I could to go. There's nothing that could stop me. I have a car, I have money in the bank and I am obsessed. Demo...I don't wanna talk about it anymore tho...
I have to help Steph with her ceramics today...in about an hour or two. I would've liked to have slept before I went but...I don't know if that's gonna happen. I might just have to settle on energy drink to keep me going. I don't feel sleepy, but I know I'm over tired. I've been getting, at most, about 5 hours sleep for the past week or two. I just haven't been able to sleep that much, whether it's because I just wake up or because I go to bed late and get woken up. Although, I have lost almost 10 lbs in three days because of not eating and walking so much. It's...nice. My jeans are like, falling off of me and that makes me happy.
Speaking of walking, I did my first walk at my job yesterday, all by myself. It was SO much fun. And so peaceful...it's like, the best job ever. The dogs are soooooooo sweet and SO good. I even had a "tricky" dog yesterday, his name is Chaos. The only reason he's "tricky" is because really, his master is anal. And they don't like the notes left by Spike's, so they demand their own paper be used.....but since none was left for me and I was NOT about to go through their house looking, I had no choice. Meh. I wrote more for Chaos than I did anyone else. So they can just deal. And I only got lost once, actually going to Chaos's house... v_v Damn confusing North/South streets...Gah.
Well, anyway. Ahhhhhhh I'm tired...I'm gonna go try and sleep for a while. I doubt it'll happen, but one can hope.
Anywho. I was a lazy bum and didn't update my LJ yesterday. Gomen. I know my life is a thrill a moment and everyone's on the edge of their seats, waiting to see what I do next.............................but fuck off. ^_^v
Sins-committed.org finally, FIN-AL-LY has MySQL although I can't install anything. *Glares* *INhales* AKLDFHSELKFHEALKFMASFMEOHWSEFAMSFKANGFEIFJOIAJDIADMANFLEKNTLASMDAMLFAPFDJNAKLFNELFMADARLARLGKENMGN!!! *pant pant* Okay, I'm good now. I also tried to make a layout...it came out pretty meh. I want something ass-kicking but I'm sorta out of sources for pictures [of Diru] because 1.) People ask that you email them and I just..don't want to do that or 2.) All my good galleries are of ONE member or 3.) All the pictures are from three or more years ago. v_v I'm too shy to join LJ communities but...I fear I may have to, and even then, I haven't really "struck gold". I downloaded some YUMMY Kyo scans but...I want all the boys in my layout. :(
Haw...I asked my dad this morning how much it had cost to adopt Brina, FULLY knowing [or at least I hope knowing/remembering O_o] that I still want to adopt my own dog, and he talked to me like it was okay for me to do that. I EVEN said, "Because I was looking at some adoption sites..." And the subject went on until Aislinn decided to be a beast. v_v SLKFJejf...My still-best defence is that Bekki, who is unemployed, lazy, selfish and stupid, has a BAY-BEE and I, who am employed, considerate, AND responsible, am not allowed to have my own dog? *Sneezes for the third time now* WTF?! Anyway...yesh. So, guilt trip on them all. Don't think it doesn't make me feel bad making them feel bad..........but it's truly not fair. Gah, I know...I'm pittiful and pathetic but...*Shrugs* I can't help it, when I want something....I want it.
Speaking of wanting things...I have very, VERY fresh motivation for wanting to become a singer. It has really nothing to do with me, but someone I feel I need to save...to not let down. Gahh...I won't go into details, but...*nods* She's worth it.
Gahh..I'm all sniffly now because of sneezing like..five times. I NEVER do that...I hope I'm not getting sick. :( *Sighs* And I just remembered...it makes my stomach hurt seeing that Diru is going to be in Berlin...I don't know why. Probably because of all the more people I know getting to go see them while I sit here, in America, praying that maybe ONE DAY Dir en grey will decide that America doesn't suck and maybe they'll go to New York. Stephanie and I were actually discussing this last night...if they came to New York...I would do absolutely everything I could to go. There's nothing that could stop me. I have a car, I have money in the bank and I am obsessed. Demo...I don't wanna talk about it anymore tho...
I have to help Steph with her ceramics today...in about an hour or two. I would've liked to have slept before I went but...I don't know if that's gonna happen. I might just have to settle on energy drink to keep me going. I don't feel sleepy, but I know I'm over tired. I've been getting, at most, about 5 hours sleep for the past week or two. I just haven't been able to sleep that much, whether it's because I just wake up or because I go to bed late and get woken up. Although, I have lost almost 10 lbs in three days because of not eating and walking so much. It's...nice. My jeans are like, falling off of me and that makes me happy.
Speaking of walking, I did my first walk at my job yesterday, all by myself. It was SO much fun. And so peaceful...it's like, the best job ever. The dogs are soooooooo sweet and SO good. I even had a "tricky" dog yesterday, his name is Chaos. The only reason he's "tricky" is because really, his master is anal. And they don't like the notes left by Spike's, so they demand their own paper be used.....but since none was left for me and I was NOT about to go through their house looking, I had no choice. Meh. I wrote more for Chaos than I did anyone else. So they can just deal. And I only got lost once, actually going to Chaos's house... v_v Damn confusing North/South streets...Gah.
Well, anyway. Ahhhhhhh I'm tired...I'm gonna go try and sleep for a while. I doubt it'll happen, but one can hope.