Well...
It seems like every time that we have a social event over here I just end up wanting to stay in my room and be antisocial. Tonight we had a potluck dinner. After dinner we went to Mike's friend Nick's house and talked and played SSM. By the time we had left my apartment to go to Nick's, I was really depressed and decided to go so as not to be antisocial. I was humming "How to Disappear Completely" by Radio head the entire ride there. At one point I went into the bathroom to cry for no apparent reason. I think I just felt like I couldn't fit into the group. Then, in the middle of playing a game, Becca made a comment that she can't get a word in edgewise with the group. I tried to agree with her and ended up screaming at her, but they didn't seem to mind all that much. Plus, for the rest of the night I was especially fine. It's as if I yelled my depression away. Too bad I can't do that in any social situation.