wow I'm a loser
I figure half my problem is that I smoke way too much dope. I'm making a concious effort to cut back, I really don't know how that's working out. good I guess. my only issue is the angry time I have without it. Not all that pleasant. I don't really feel all that positive either. which I'm sure is just another side effect. today though I feel good, and energetic, and because of that i'll probably finally do my laundry, after not touching it for a week, and clean my room. we'll see how it works out, I guess if I wanna get anywhere in life, I'm gonna have to give some stuff up. I figure that would be significantly easier if I were alone. I would feel more secure in the choices that I make. Guess it doesn't matter though, don't really have the cash to make that happen. I just find when I'm alone I don't really care too much what other people think. When I get stuck with a bunch of people around me, I tend to make choices that work for them too. Which is really good in a way, it means I can comprimise if necessary, but not so good in that I can't take them out of the equation when I need to. I don't really feel frustrated right now either. which is nice. anyhoo, time to work on not smoking the ding dang diggity and getting my ass to work.