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this is me admitting it. i fucked myself over. it is my mess. but the thing is i have accepted in my head already, not wanting to go public with it. but its so much better when your dirty laundry is aired sometimes. its a crazy sense of relief. i need to go to class next semester. youll notice ive already given up on this semester. 3 semesters in a row now of sucking. maybe i will actually succeed next year. itll be freshman and senior years - my capstone years of greatness where i didnt suck so bad. but ya know, i really do feel like turning 21 was like turning over a new leaf. i feel really good vibes about the upcoming year. and ill take that.