Long time
It's been a very long time since I used this site...probably close to a year, i wonder if anybody is gunna read this or not, i've probably been systematically deleted from everybodies livejournal that i was on at one time. For those of you who do still have me added I guess you can read this...i just need to say it and get it off my chest whether it gets read this or not, it would be comforting to think somebody out there may have. I'm confused about everything. I spend my days doing mainly nothing, i work, and sleep mostly...sometimes i get the chance to write, i don't go to school because i'm a loser, plain and simple, my friends might disagree, but i don't think it's something they mean to make me feel better more something they say to make themselves feel like they've tried to help me. I don't sleep much anymore, i just can't do it, i'm afraid if i sleep i'll lose everything i had overnight, like there is some meeting somewhere going on where the first order of buisness is to change something in my life, but the meeting is on hold until i get to sleep. i miss having friends,i used to at least have that...nowadays my friends don't trust me, they think i'll get angry, which ironically makes me angry and justifies their mistrust. The worst thing about everybody leaving you alone is being alone. I need somebody, cause i've lost everybody, and i'll take almost anybody. I don't want pity, i'm afraid of getting pitied. I want to be in a place where i can help others again, hoping somebody has read this and can empathize in some way....Greg