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hi my lovely lj. wow, its been a while.
i never really left you lj, i've made posts, just never got to finish typing my entire thought, so wrong impressions could be made of them.
my mom's now a student @ university of florida, to get her pharm D degree or something. and, this will take all of three years, meaning no computer, and not getting to go many places. i just get to be on this thing now cuz we ate dinner @ panerera's @ the mall, and she brought her lap top. she says she enjoys learning,- another stab @ my GPA i suppose, IDK. but she really does like learning. and she feels she needs to prove herself to everyone, like we don't think of her as smart, just because she doesnt carry the extra degree. strange woman. when teachers, or my parents say im smart, its not a good thing, it just means, i dont try hard enough. oh well. im taking psyc next year, im pretty excited. im screwed though. failed english. cant go summer school cuz of the family buisiness, and besides, i would gladly leave this place any day esp for hawaii. even if i miss summer school. i know. my heart is torn.
but miss dement the bitch again. i cant go through that again. i will die. DIE.
I CANT BELIEVE HOW BITCHY PEOPLE ARE.
god damn. i always try to find revenge somehow, tho. im mysterious and unusual ways.
except that bitch @ DQ. i still beat myself up for not doing anything. the mysteriosity effect although was a bit of challenge. the only non violent approach would probably be to spray his face with ketchup, but he's such a bitch he probably would punch me in the face, girl or not. and that's as degrading to me as anything. i probably wouldnt let myself continue to live if he did that, and i didnt punch him back, but if i did punch him back, it would probably escalate, and id probably lose. hence meaning, pointless. he was a skinny ass tho. i might actually would have won.
hate kaity. stole my word. after she said it was stupid. hoebag. i used to hang out with her all the time, and actually met aurielle through her, and now aurielle calls me, and invites me 2 all the things. while kaity acts like i'm aurielle's friend, and so is she so we're like indirect friends now and she'll hug me and shit, then be off on her marry little fake social way to be with people, she's not but wishes she was. this place. we all feel we need to be cool. to be someone. which rarely is our true selves. this is such a strange concept to me. i'm here, and im a no one, and i go to ohio, or hawaii, or home (which i can't go to, but remember what it was like) and im somebody. im actually on the social side, im not such a loser, without a label. people actually want to be me, and i smile at them because of how wrong they are.
4 months until summer. if we have a snow day im flippin going to school because they arent keeping me a single day late.
i love my cousins. haven't really laughed since i've seen them. their house in lahaina (not the mountain one i stay in) was just torched. no reason @ all. my uncle is like a japanese jesus. he is the nicest person ever. idk what is wrong with people.
i want to save the sae turtles! god damn, i saw one during winter break in florida. it was dead, lying in the sand with it's legs ripped off and scattered around him. fuck. and we feel we need to "save" the iraqis. just shit like this. i swear....
yeah, tah tah for now.
hope the love of your life calls at around 1 AM, and something life changing happens to you in the next 2 days. oh, but this will only happen if you comment. or you will have bad luck in your love life as long as you live.
i never really left you lj, i've made posts, just never got to finish typing my entire thought, so wrong impressions could be made of them.
my mom's now a student @ university of florida, to get her pharm D degree or something. and, this will take all of three years, meaning no computer, and not getting to go many places. i just get to be on this thing now cuz we ate dinner @ panerera's @ the mall, and she brought her lap top. she says she enjoys learning,- another stab @ my GPA i suppose, IDK. but she really does like learning. and she feels she needs to prove herself to everyone, like we don't think of her as smart, just because she doesnt carry the extra degree. strange woman. when teachers, or my parents say im smart, its not a good thing, it just means, i dont try hard enough. oh well. im taking psyc next year, im pretty excited. im screwed though. failed english. cant go summer school cuz of the family buisiness, and besides, i would gladly leave this place any day esp for hawaii. even if i miss summer school. i know. my heart is torn.
but miss dement the bitch again. i cant go through that again. i will die. DIE.
I CANT BELIEVE HOW BITCHY PEOPLE ARE.
god damn. i always try to find revenge somehow, tho. im mysterious and unusual ways.
except that bitch @ DQ. i still beat myself up for not doing anything. the mysteriosity effect although was a bit of challenge. the only non violent approach would probably be to spray his face with ketchup, but he's such a bitch he probably would punch me in the face, girl or not. and that's as degrading to me as anything. i probably wouldnt let myself continue to live if he did that, and i didnt punch him back, but if i did punch him back, it would probably escalate, and id probably lose. hence meaning, pointless. he was a skinny ass tho. i might actually would have won.
hate kaity. stole my word. after she said it was stupid. hoebag. i used to hang out with her all the time, and actually met aurielle through her, and now aurielle calls me, and invites me 2 all the things. while kaity acts like i'm aurielle's friend, and so is she so we're like indirect friends now and she'll hug me and shit, then be off on her marry little fake social way to be with people, she's not but wishes she was. this place. we all feel we need to be cool. to be someone. which rarely is our true selves. this is such a strange concept to me. i'm here, and im a no one, and i go to ohio, or hawaii, or home (which i can't go to, but remember what it was like) and im somebody. im actually on the social side, im not such a loser, without a label. people actually want to be me, and i smile at them because of how wrong they are.
4 months until summer. if we have a snow day im flippin going to school because they arent keeping me a single day late.
i love my cousins. haven't really laughed since i've seen them. their house in lahaina (not the mountain one i stay in) was just torched. no reason @ all. my uncle is like a japanese jesus. he is the nicest person ever. idk what is wrong with people.
i want to save the sae turtles! god damn, i saw one during winter break in florida. it was dead, lying in the sand with it's legs ripped off and scattered around him. fuck. and we feel we need to "save" the iraqis. just shit like this. i swear....
yeah, tah tah for now.
hope the love of your life calls at around 1 AM, and something life changing happens to you in the next 2 days. oh, but this will only happen if you comment. or you will have bad luck in your love life as long as you live.