Post before bed...
My days of staying online forever have GOT to stop. I just can't sleep anymore. I probably won't go to sleep now, but perhaps I'll watch TV for a bit.
Since I'm bored and someone suggested I write a poem, I have decided to instead do some random thoughts that are running through my head...
Sincerity is a necessity in life. Without this, We have nothing. I'm tired of things being thrown around casually, whether it be I love you's, I'm sorry's or (pardon my language), fuck offs. I have never been one to do either of them. In fact, one of the HARDEST things for me to say is I love you, with I'm sorry coming in a near tied second. I am a firm believer in saying what you feel, it's just that sometimes my words, whether taken wrong or said wrong, get misconstrued. I am a very blunt person. I don't want to be, but it happens. A bitch I may be, but sometimes I'm the type of person who keeps it all bottled up inside. I have always been somewhat of a rock in my family. I'm always the one that everything is expected of. I get a lot of you should have's and why not's. I'm stubborn as a mule, but I'm also so nice. I care too much is my problem and when someone doesn't return that or acknowledge me, I'm crushed and I'm like a wild animal in a cage, I will automatically be defensive. If I have learned anything this year it's to learn to let go sometimes. Things aren't always what they seem. I need to learn to be the Melissa I want to be and not anything else. This year's new years resolution is to not be so Naive.
Anyone else have a resolution?
Now back to my wine.
Since I'm bored and someone suggested I write a poem, I have decided to instead do some random thoughts that are running through my head...
Sincerity is a necessity in life. Without this, We have nothing. I'm tired of things being thrown around casually, whether it be I love you's, I'm sorry's or (pardon my language), fuck offs. I have never been one to do either of them. In fact, one of the HARDEST things for me to say is I love you, with I'm sorry coming in a near tied second. I am a firm believer in saying what you feel, it's just that sometimes my words, whether taken wrong or said wrong, get misconstrued. I am a very blunt person. I don't want to be, but it happens. A bitch I may be, but sometimes I'm the type of person who keeps it all bottled up inside. I have always been somewhat of a rock in my family. I'm always the one that everything is expected of. I get a lot of you should have's and why not's. I'm stubborn as a mule, but I'm also so nice. I care too much is my problem and when someone doesn't return that or acknowledge me, I'm crushed and I'm like a wild animal in a cage, I will automatically be defensive. If I have learned anything this year it's to learn to let go sometimes. Things aren't always what they seem. I need to learn to be the Melissa I want to be and not anything else. This year's new years resolution is to not be so Naive.
Anyone else have a resolution?
Now back to my wine.