5 good things
1. I got to talk to Aaron yesterday, and we had a really good conversation. It's all so different then it was before, and all so much better. I don't think I realized what the relationship was missing until it was over, but now...now, I'm just happy.
2. After talking to Aaron, I wrote in my journal and realized a few things. It's harder than most people would think for me to accept fault with myself - not to say that I'm wrong, which I actually don't have too much of a hard time doing, but to actually realize that maybe my motives were wrong, maybe I wanted the wrong thing, maybe I wasn't doing what was right - that's hard for me to come to terms with. And I understood a piece of it last night.
3. I know so far all these things relate to Aaron, but I also had a dream about him last night. It's the first good dream I've had in a while. It was beautiful. I didn't want it to end, but when I woke up I was happy. Usually, I wake up and feel sad, for some reason.
4. I got to have a bit of a break yesterday, which is nice because this past week's been so hectic. I still feel like I could probably use a few more days, haha, but this will be all right I think. Really, what I guess I want is a little more time during the week, but we'll see. I'm hoping this next week's going to be better than the last.
5. Looking ahead: Pradeep gets eliminated TOMORROW, my birthday's on FRIDAY, Aaron comes on SATURDAY, my mom comes on SUNDAY!
2. After talking to Aaron, I wrote in my journal and realized a few things. It's harder than most people would think for me to accept fault with myself - not to say that I'm wrong, which I actually don't have too much of a hard time doing, but to actually realize that maybe my motives were wrong, maybe I wanted the wrong thing, maybe I wasn't doing what was right - that's hard for me to come to terms with. And I understood a piece of it last night.
3. I know so far all these things relate to Aaron, but I also had a dream about him last night. It's the first good dream I've had in a while. It was beautiful. I didn't want it to end, but when I woke up I was happy. Usually, I wake up and feel sad, for some reason.
4. I got to have a bit of a break yesterday, which is nice because this past week's been so hectic. I still feel like I could probably use a few more days, haha, but this will be all right I think. Really, what I guess I want is a little more time during the week, but we'll see. I'm hoping this next week's going to be better than the last.
5. Looking ahead: Pradeep gets eliminated TOMORROW, my birthday's on FRIDAY, Aaron comes on SATURDAY, my mom comes on SUNDAY!