Just had a bad case a dejavou while giving this entry a title

[sybil_3]

I'm still really upset. But now I'm just hurt, not mad. Did you ever think that maybe the way someone acts toward you when they're mad, is how they really feel? Well I just have a feeling it wasn't just anger talking. I don't know. But now I'm super depressed, and missing my friends back home. At least I always knew where I stood with them. Maybe I

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It's KAthy

[anonymous]

I'll answer these. Syb, you know I love you. But for the past week or so I've been getting really frustrated with you. Now maybe I do this, too, in fact, I know I do. But all you've said to me for the longest time now is what is wrong with your life, what's pissing you off. What is stressing you out. I know how important it is to vent, and by all means, please do. It's healthier than the three you listed. But you know, when all someone does is bitch to you about everything it gets kinda tiring. The fights and arguments are getting old, too. Not Kim, that will never ever get old. But the random things, like with that black guy who called you racist.
Why does everything have to end in fights?
Like the IM convo.
Fuck you to tell me not to have a bad day when all you have is bad days. And fuck you to tell me not to judge the way you deal with your anger when, lo and behold, that's what you're doing to me right now, you goddammed hypocrite. And fuck you to tell Pattie I'm talking shit. For your information, I'm not a shit talker behind someone's back. I have a beef with someone, I tell them.
Whatever Syb. I don't even care about this anymore. If you can't deal with my ups and downs then how are we supposed to be friends?

YES I'm mad.
Yes you're mad.
Okay, so we're mad at each other.
Mad TOGETHER
There's still that us thing.
This is stupid. I'll admit that right now.
But if we can't get past it, how are we supposed to get past anything?
The decision is yours.
You have bad days. I have bad days. Some worse than others. Some handled differently. Handled poorly. Handled intelligently.
You're not perfect. I'm not perfect.
No one is perfect.
We don't like the way others do things. We want things our way. TO suit our needs and feelings.
Face it, we're never gunna get it.
Sometimes in your life you'll have to deal with people like me. Think of this as practice.
You gunna kick my ass or walk away??? It's up to you. I already made my decision...wrong one or not, I'm stuck with it.
What will yours be?

Re: It's KAthy

[sybil_3]

Kathy just so you know I give up, and for your info alot of the arguments I get in are for YOU! Yea I know i don't tell you that, but i take alot of shit for being your bestfriend. But ya know what Fuck it nothing is worth me getting so upset and I'm to the point I just want to go back to Chicago and be happy.