Thoughts......
There comes a time in every persons life where they reach the breaking point. Where you realize you can't handle everybody else's problems and still make sense of your own. Where you realize that its not your fault if other people fail. Maybe sometimes you are just enabling them to fail more than they would without you being there in everything. I realized that I cannot change other peoples lives, especially if I am not focusing on my own. I have realized that God has great plans for me whether I have a boyfriend or not. I am so in love with one guy and until i can put those feelings away why should I make another guy fall for me.(I saw him today by the way...D) Why do I feel like I need a boyfriend, or just a guy there to make me feel like I am worth something. I DONT. I am a beautiful, smart, funny, honest young woman and I will continue to grow into that one step at a time, with a guy or without. God has the perfect man out there for me, I just have to sit back and enjoy the ride. He will come along. Whether he comes back from my past or steps in from my future. I have to trust God with all of this. This my friends is one of the hardest decisions I will ever have to make. To put your faith and trust fully in God is the scariest, most exciting thing I think I will ever do. But until I do I am just making the choice to make my life a living hell. And until I can make my life wonderful and complete, I cannot make anyone else's life better.