like falling into a bottomless pit

[sxypunkrocker]

so once again i thought me and denise were doing cool and she turns around and bitches at me about something else. i know everyone thinks i'm stupid for talking to her, but i don't know there's just something about her that i really like. but i always feel like i have to prove myself to her and shit and i don't understand why. i mean i'm not the kind of guy that is untrustworthy. i understand my living situation is a little shady, but if somethign was happening i would tell her. why would i want to talk to someone 4 hours aways if i had someone here? if this keeps up i just might have to find someone here. i mean i know there's at least two girls that really like me, but i keep blowing them off because of everything going on in my life. maybe i should stop. ahhhhhhhhh i hate fucking females. no offense to anyone.

so i'm down to only one job again. good ol hot topic. it's not too bad though. i'm thinking of applying at petsmart. i was supposed to go last week sometime but i didn't make it. hmmmmm. i need another job bad though. any suggestions? i've been going to a lot of shows lately. i went to a friend's show last night that was awesome. a bunch of hardcore bands. and it was free. free stuff is always good. i need to start working on my hardcore skills so i can start tearing it up in the pit. i don't think i'm too bad. i just dont' want to make a fool of myself. well that's everything for now i suppose. peace and chicken grease.

-thomas