another wounderful day in my life,,,,NOT!!
ok so the last couple of days were going pretty good i had half days this week cuz of our examsn which was nice.. so i ended up hanging out with C- Bag during those days but last night my parents spazed out on me and said that i was out of the house to much and too long.. now usually you would think that they would want me out of the house but no for some odd reason they want me here when to be completely honest i really do not like being here at all, when i am home i am always in my room and they never see me anyway so what is the big deal if i am out with cheslea rather than siting on my ass and doing nothing?? you would think that they would be glad that i kind of have my life back i mean i really have not done anything since John was killed. i am trying to do things that will take my mind off of things but its like they do not want to have any fun unless they are with me or i am somewhere where they can watch me like i am a little baby. i mean i am 18 years old not 10 anymore, when i was 10 i had more freedom than i do now. now how fucked up is that?? pretty fucked up if you ask me!! then they decided to tell me that i have to get a job but its kinda hard when i have no car no licsense yet. so please someone tell me how i am suppose to get to work??? if you know where i live than you know that there is nothing even close to my house that could walk to and not to mention that i can only walk for short distances anyway or my knee gives out on me and to top everything off they told me that they did not want me to see Brian well here is a no brainer i am gonna see him if i want to. if he makes me happy i do not see they problem and frankly i do not care if they like him or not i do and that is all that matters to me its not like i asked them to date him or anything hell we arent even around them when we are together so i dont see that their big problem is with him and i know that him and i have had some problems but we have worked through them and if people respect me and care for me like they say they do then they will understand that it is my life and i have every right to be happy with whom ever i want i mean sure their approval would be nice but they are never happy with anyone that i date so its a no win situation for me if you think about it i cant make them happy no matter what i do so i am gonna live my life and make me happy for once and if they kick me out because of this then oh well once i am gone i will not come back to them and this time they cant have to cops come and make me come home so they better watch what they say to me cuz i have had enough and one of these days i will pack up my thnk and leave and they will be so surprised. i mean it isnt only the brian thing either they dont want to help me pay for anything at all not my senior pics or my cap and gown stuff or my prom i mean i found a dress that i fell in love with and it was like 160 bucks and that is really good for a prom dress but they told me that they were not gonna help me. my dad says that they are not essentials for me so he doesnt have to help me with any of them they are all my problems so i will figure out a way to pay for all this until i get a really good job and once i do i will make sure that they do not take any credit for this cuz they dont want to help me have a nice senior year well they can kiss my ass thats all i have to say