A Memory.. to be locked in my heart forever
Despite having a really rough day, finding out my dad had been in the Seattle VA hospital for a week before anyone in my family telling me and going to the doctor and finding out that they are giving up on looking into what is wrong with me, it was still a good day.
Despite all the tears I shed from all the frustration of my family and my doctors, I went to bed with a happy heart and sense that things will be alright.
My dad gave his approval of Jamie asking me to marry him.
Its now down to waiting for him to actually ask me.
My dad said we made him the happiest man with the news that we are planning on getting married. I know he and my mom are worried that they won't see their last daughter down the aisle, but we promised my dad last night he would.
My heart was torn by sadness and happiness though. Sadness because my dad has never shown such sentiment around me before and to me that means he is contemplating death, and that I need to accept that he won't be around forever. (which tears me apart)
Happiness because beyond being happy for myself and my position in life, I will be making my parents happier than I assume I ever have. They will have the security that their last child will be married and taken care of. No longer will they need to worry about me and my well being.
To see the light and happiness on my dad's face, despite being in the hospital, sick and in pain, was a memory I am going to store in my mind for the rest of my life.
Despite all the tears I shed from all the frustration of my family and my doctors, I went to bed with a happy heart and sense that things will be alright.
My dad gave his approval of Jamie asking me to marry him.
Its now down to waiting for him to actually ask me.
My dad said we made him the happiest man with the news that we are planning on getting married. I know he and my mom are worried that they won't see their last daughter down the aisle, but we promised my dad last night he would.
My heart was torn by sadness and happiness though. Sadness because my dad has never shown such sentiment around me before and to me that means he is contemplating death, and that I need to accept that he won't be around forever. (which tears me apart)
Happiness because beyond being happy for myself and my position in life, I will be making my parents happier than I assume I ever have. They will have the security that their last child will be married and taken care of. No longer will they need to worry about me and my well being.
To see the light and happiness on my dad's face, despite being in the hospital, sick and in pain, was a memory I am going to store in my mind for the rest of my life.