W. O. W.
Its been such a long time since I have done this. I am actually updating. Haven't done that since like June. My my my! Alot has happened, some good, some bad.
School is going alright. I have some wicked major stuff due within the next two weeks and well I am procrastinating because that is what I do best.
I had a really bad week this week though and didn't go to school at all. My uncle died suddenly and unexpectedly last Monday night so I have been reeling from that. I have not overcome the shock factor yet and it still seems very unreal to me. I have cried alot and contemplated and wondered. Its been rough, very rough on my family, very rough on my aunt. They were married for 43 years, an entire life together to have it taken away within a matter of minutes, fine one second and gone the next. It hasn't sunk in that he is gone yet though, even though I was at the wake and the funeral and I was at their house and he wasn't there, its still not real to me yet. I keep expecting to wake up from this horrible dream to find out it was all just that....a dream. I told Zac it would have been easier to accept if he had been sick because you kinda grow to accept it and realize it is going to happen, but when the person is perfectly healthy, no history of heart problems or any other problems and they did their day to day routine and then that afternoon just have a heart attack and die, its harder to swallow because its just so unexpected. My aunt was with him thankfully. They are both retired, he is 67 and she just turned 61 yesterday, first birthday alone without him in a long time. I can't even imagine. I don't want to imagine.
Ok, enough of the depressing stuff....sorry...I just needed to talk it out alittle.
Anyways, the weather is driving me crazy, I wish it was cold. Its the end of October and still 90 degrees. Its ridiculous.
I am out to my parents house, they made tamales for dinner tonight. Yum.
Maybe I will update more often since I made the effort for this!!
love you guys.
School is going alright. I have some wicked major stuff due within the next two weeks and well I am procrastinating because that is what I do best.
I had a really bad week this week though and didn't go to school at all. My uncle died suddenly and unexpectedly last Monday night so I have been reeling from that. I have not overcome the shock factor yet and it still seems very unreal to me. I have cried alot and contemplated and wondered. Its been rough, very rough on my family, very rough on my aunt. They were married for 43 years, an entire life together to have it taken away within a matter of minutes, fine one second and gone the next. It hasn't sunk in that he is gone yet though, even though I was at the wake and the funeral and I was at their house and he wasn't there, its still not real to me yet. I keep expecting to wake up from this horrible dream to find out it was all just that....a dream. I told Zac it would have been easier to accept if he had been sick because you kinda grow to accept it and realize it is going to happen, but when the person is perfectly healthy, no history of heart problems or any other problems and they did their day to day routine and then that afternoon just have a heart attack and die, its harder to swallow because its just so unexpected. My aunt was with him thankfully. They are both retired, he is 67 and she just turned 61 yesterday, first birthday alone without him in a long time. I can't even imagine. I don't want to imagine.
Ok, enough of the depressing stuff....sorry...I just needed to talk it out alittle.
Anyways, the weather is driving me crazy, I wish it was cold. Its the end of October and still 90 degrees. Its ridiculous.
I am out to my parents house, they made tamales for dinner tonight. Yum.
Maybe I will update more often since I made the effort for this!!
love you guys.