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Even though there is all this bullshit surrounding me at all times it seems like, Im good. I feel content knowing that Im not part of it. And although outnumbered, Im not scared but helplessly doubtful sometimes though. I have myself. I no longer feel the need to go out and have sex for one. I used to do it because it made me feel loved or it validated my hottness or some shit. Either way, I was depending on someone else to decide how I felt about myself. Fuck that. I know what I got now. And I definetly dont wanna go out and share it with just anyone. Ugh. I feel like Im of less value because of all the shit I used to do. But thats in the past so fuck it. I feel really good about myself right now. Im learning who I am. As opposed to when I spent the duration of last year trying to find it like it was a lost cell phone or something. Its a slow process, and as long as you do what you feel is right.... youll be happy and content in the end. Im not gonna let my childhood issues hold me back anymore. Anyway, I dont know if anyone understands or not but I dont really give a shit. Im done with all this serious talk about the meanings of life and whatnot... blah. I have a few dollars and Im hungry. What should I do? Its sad, Ive eaten like evrything in the house. Literally. I seriously like ate up all the food. I cant stop eating!!! Im trying to gain weight and its just not working. I eat wayyyyy more than I used to ever and I cant gain a pound. But yah, no food to eat. At least I have pepsi to drink tho. *nods* uh huh uh huh uh huh No plans today, besides eat that is. Unless yoyo comes over or wants to go out. Man, I love that girl. Yoyo is da shit! Such a blessing. Oh gaud, you have no idea. Gotta go for now, Steve's on and Im gonna call Sean and have him grab me some grub on his way home.