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[sxybuni69]

hey i just finshed babystitting i am suprized how fast i got home. anywas yesterday night i walked in my room and felt really depresed. so i turned on my "sad song" which is a Evanescence- My Immortal. i lisined to it over and over. as i layed on my bed thinking i started to cry. i felt so....alone....so then when i got myself to stop i started to pull out my candel and pin (that i burn with) then i was about to lit it and i stoped and thought i put it away and went around my room taking all the pictures on my wall down so that i had somthing to do other then burn. i move all the pictures around and all of the magazen pics i threw away. my room looks bare but i really don't give a shit. looking at the happy people in the pictures made me mad. then when i was done moveing all of the pics i sat on my bed and spaced out for like an hour i just looked blankly at the floor thinking....suddenly there was some loud sound that snaped me out of it. so i turned off my music that had been running since like 7:00 and i look at my clock and the time reads 9:56pm so i left my room and went to the living room. i and as i left my room i thought damn i sat in my room thinking and moveing stupid pictures on my wall for 3 hours... i felt like crying again but i held it in and stayed in the living room and talked with nick about stuff on the computer and crap.... anyways about today it was shitty like anyother day. Blake made me kinda angry becase he wasn't talking during 5th hour again and then he started to talk during lunch...oh well.... well i got to go... i have to look for a damn dress (on ebay) for my Drama Banquet ( may 25 ) the theme is masquerade... so i have to ware a damn dress...fuck them....g2g
later

Music: Hawthorne Heights - Ohio Is For Lovers, Evanescence - My Immortal, and Snow Patrol -Spitting Game