lost & need to be found soon other wise i'll go crazy like everyone else in this fucking world

[sxybuni69]

i am mad at people and i don't know why. i think i may not go to school tomrow becase i just don't feel like it...i also feel jelous again not sure why...my life is to confusing...i have so many secorts and thinking of them is making me go crazy inside i try not to show my feelings. but now everything is coming out i need someone to talk to but i really can't talk to anyone. so i think to myself my mind is filled now with so many of my problums that i keep spacing out during the day. i hope it passes becase everyone is asking me what is wrong and it bothers me. i have nothing to say anymore. i keep to much inside and i don't wanna turn to burning again. hopfully typing in here will make me more clam. maybe i should just tell people what my problum is... no becase then they will think i am being to nagative or whatever. i feel so alone... i need to hang out with more people then just blake and melissa. i need to get a way i think i may go for a walk later just to clear my mind. go down to woodfild later and go to the wooded area...and draw or read or lison to a cd or somthing...i could just go in my room and cry myself to sleep. i think i may just go for a walk i am not sure all i know is i wanna be somewhere other then here and i wanna be alone. have more time to think about things... i wish some times i had no feelings... then i wouldn't be so blah all the time...i hope someone comes on aim soon so i can pretend to have some friends.( and becase i know i wont be able to go for a walk becase jessica and devon my cusins are over and my grandma wants me to make sure jessica is busy doing somthing with me so that shes not under her feet all the time. what makes her think i want her to be around me eather?) well i am gonna go now... i think i may post on myo and wait for someone to come on aim or just sit in my room and pretend i am doing homework so that jessica dosn't bother me...later
p.s. (i need a hug becase i am still lonly) look at the funny pics below


























ok i am done