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[sxybuni69]

i just have woken up... i rember everything now that happend before i feel asleep. i was over at melissa's with Stephanie (her cusin) and nathen... nathen keep doing ... sexualy typed things to me at the bus stop *thinks blake why didn't you stay i needed your help after you left* blowing in my ears is one of them. kyle was there to. yes he to was blowing in my ears... why must everyone try to turn me on?... i know it wouldn't have worked for them but it was still tickling me. when we got on the bus we left kyle behide all alone....poor kyle... then we disided to go to my house but when we got to the bus stop the number 7 was just leaving. so melissa called stephanie and stephanie came and pick us up. when we were in the car we disided to go to melissa's so when we got there we had some wonderful beef jerky *thanks melissa's dad lol* we talk for a little but then nathen came and sat on my lap. i didn't mind... we just kept talking then nathen started to .... do things... i wish i could have left with melissa and stephanie i felt really uncofurtable... but then stephanie disided that she was going to take me and him to my house... then leave me alone with him... it was ok with me i just wish melissa would have stayed. we hung out in my room for a bit talking about things. then he got really close. i didn't know what he was doing so i ducked really low. then he moved back we pertended like nothing happend. we told eachother some secorts and then he leaned in again i moved really close to the wall. i am not sure but i think he kissed my forhead... i could have sworn i felt lips... but i think i must have felt maybe his breath agenst my head .... right then i felt like oh god where is melissa when you need her. i wanted to call her but i thought that she would be having to much fun with stephanie. i felt really bad. i mean i kept thinking melissa was mad becase he sat on my lap. i don't know. i could tell stephanie didn't like him much. anyways we walked in the back yard and looked at the all the bildings far far away. then we went back inside YES i thought MY MOM IS HOME. then i showed my mom nathen they seemed to get along ok. i asked her about pride fest she said she wasn't sure if she was still ganna go i told her that i wanted him and melissa to come along, again i got an i don't know. then i got nathen to gather his things and go out to the bus stop we talked in till the bus came. then i went inside and my mom told me i was grounded becase i didn't do the dishwasher, so tomorrow i wont be able to use the computer. i am not sure for how long. then i went in my room till i feel asleep.
well i am going to call melissa now.
later

11:36pm

i just got finshed talking to justin. i am going to tell nathen tomorrow what i felt about the thing that happend. other then that my mom says that she is for sure not going to pirde fest this weekend... sorry melissa and nathen guess your going to have to find another ride. other then that i can't find my purple note book the one with all my drawings and its really starting to bother me that i can't find it and now that i am gorounded i am going to be sitting in my room at night with nothing to do.
well i am going to go now before my mom yells at me for begin on the computer to much lol
night