"Am I that Irresistable?" "Yeah..."
Today I woke up late.. again. Went to class..blah blah blah.. Fun fun. This entry is deffinately not about today, but it does effect today's mood and perspective. I talked to John yesturday. HUGE mix-up the other night. He said he had other plans because he had to drive his mom somewhere. How is that a mix-up? He thought I meant I was coming over right at that moment; I meant I was coming over around 10-11pm. (I called around 5ish. Get it? Yeah. Now I do too. We talked for a bit and with John I am very open with how I feel about him and when I'm thinking about him he knows it. That's just the way it goes. The only thing I am afraid to do is tell him I love him because even though I know he does and he knows he does. He won't say it back and I don't want to say it then hear silence. It's just a heartbreaker. So, otherwise I'm open. He asked me if he was that irresistable, which meant more then what it sounds. He was basically asking if he was the only guy I feel this way about; and, yeah he is. In response I asked the same question, and he said yeah I was. Which felt AWESOME by the way! He Loves me! not that I didn't know it but yeah. He also said if he has nothing to do on June 10th, he's all mine! YES! but he said the 10th sounds like a familiar date which we all know that a familiar date means that something is supposed to be happening that day.. so damnit! But cross your fingers for me. I really want this to happen.... Sometimes Love sucks, but days like this and phone calls like that make up for it! lol
Love yas, Jamie
Love yas, Jamie