Holla
It's been a month since I went to Oceanside and saw James. Its been several days...almost a week since I heard anything from him. I cant help but be redundant and say...what did I do wrong? Did he finally get those letters I sent him when I was pregnant?? But u know what, I got better things to do and worry about then if some guy far away from here digs me or not. It sucks that it seems it's not gonna work out but I got a life too. I have man and a baby...I need to worry about school and getting a fucking job and makeing some cash. James could of had me all to himself but I dont know what the fuck his problem is. Yak know I just hadnt felt that way in a long time, being all giggly, smiling, just overwhelemed with the fact he was thinking of me and I was thinking of him...ummm plus all those nights we txted eaxh other...anyway at least I had fun when I did go. And its not like me and him didnt have fun...if u know what I mean. Okay okay enough of that bullshit. I really got to get my shit together. The baby gets her second series of shots on Friday. AWWW oouchee! She is soo sute I just want to squeeze her and smell her and love her in my arms. I could never love anything or anyone as much as I do my baby girl.