one more thing..
why's it my fault?
why do i try too hard?
one of those days.
i am listening to john mayer. by choice.
my stupid mouth.
i pretty much feel like that 100% of my life. this fucking ebb and flow of idiot waves.
i have applied to every job in wisconsin. they'll all consecutively call me back. so if any one needs a personal assistant, dog walker, house sitter, house cleaner, house designer, receptionist, secretary, musician, artist, teacher wanna be, social aide, caregiver, barista. please pay me. in money. not smiles. or phone calls. or lack of.
this lack of providing a service to society is really taking a toll on my health. in all aspects. iyanla would tell me that im not being authentic, or using my divine purpose. but iyanla is in LA and i am on my couch. dusty knows the reference.
this post makes it seem like i do nothign all day, which to some might seem true. but its far from.
i lterally apply to 5-15 jobs a day, make follow up calls and emails, wait, clean, wait, do laundry, wait, watch starting over (for an emotional boost smoothie), play with dog, wait, clean, wait, wait, wait...
its not a lack of motivation on my part. believe me i am motivated. maybe my goals are too lofty, maybe im too picky, maybe the truth is i am honestly overqualified for alot of jobs, but becuase i lack the "technical" experience, they pass me by.
desperation is such a bitch.
call me captain backfire.
why do i try too hard?
one of those days.
i am listening to john mayer. by choice.
my stupid mouth.
i pretty much feel like that 100% of my life. this fucking ebb and flow of idiot waves.
i have applied to every job in wisconsin. they'll all consecutively call me back. so if any one needs a personal assistant, dog walker, house sitter, house cleaner, house designer, receptionist, secretary, musician, artist, teacher wanna be, social aide, caregiver, barista. please pay me. in money. not smiles. or phone calls. or lack of.
this lack of providing a service to society is really taking a toll on my health. in all aspects. iyanla would tell me that im not being authentic, or using my divine purpose. but iyanla is in LA and i am on my couch. dusty knows the reference.
this post makes it seem like i do nothign all day, which to some might seem true. but its far from.
i lterally apply to 5-15 jobs a day, make follow up calls and emails, wait, clean, wait, do laundry, wait, watch starting over (for an emotional boost smoothie), play with dog, wait, clean, wait, wait, wait...
its not a lack of motivation on my part. believe me i am motivated. maybe my goals are too lofty, maybe im too picky, maybe the truth is i am honestly overqualified for alot of jobs, but becuase i lack the "technical" experience, they pass me by.
desperation is such a bitch.
call me captain backfire.