Seriouly?
I'm...not entirely sure what happened just now.
But I think it was bad.
And I don't think it was my fault...or anyone's fault for that matter, but somehow a friendly discussion turned south REALLY quickly and the only thing I can think of is that today is just NOT MY DAY because, between this and everything else that went wrong with my day today I am just...confused.
And I feel like crying really, really hard for a really, really long time because I am done with today and every day subsequent to today until God or my karma stops fucking with me, since I haven't done anything that I can think of that would make either of those, or any other, entities turn against me.
Now I sound like I have a giant persecution complex, but that's not it, I am just...confused. About how today could SUCK so entirely and how, no matter who I was talking to today, I always seemed to come out of conversations and interactions worse off both emotionally and mentally than when I went in.
And it makes me...suicidal is not the right word, but one that meant something close to what that word connotes without the nasty "dead" implication.
Yeah.
But I think it was bad.
And I don't think it was my fault...or anyone's fault for that matter, but somehow a friendly discussion turned south REALLY quickly and the only thing I can think of is that today is just NOT MY DAY because, between this and everything else that went wrong with my day today I am just...confused.
And I feel like crying really, really hard for a really, really long time because I am done with today and every day subsequent to today until God or my karma stops fucking with me, since I haven't done anything that I can think of that would make either of those, or any other, entities turn against me.
Now I sound like I have a giant persecution complex, but that's not it, I am just...confused. About how today could SUCK so entirely and how, no matter who I was talking to today, I always seemed to come out of conversations and interactions worse off both emotionally and mentally than when I went in.
And it makes me...suicidal is not the right word, but one that meant something close to what that word connotes without the nasty "dead" implication.
Yeah.