[this seems like a dream.]
Okay, so to make this great, [=/] I wake up today on April third two thousand and five, and I come out to my dining room, pass my bathroom, and well I look outside and what do I see? snow. What kind of shit is that? Come on, it's April third.
Yesterday was most likely the worst day of my life, I couldn't even talk to Jon for very long because it was freezing outside. Seeings how my cell doesn't work inside my house. And my regular phone doesn't work as of now [something happend to it, we don't get a dial tone.]
Okay so there's music playing downstairs and it's incredibly loud, I can here it over this music up here. And the floor is vibrating and it's giving me a head ache. And well, this day isn't starting off to well itself.
I really wish that there was something to do around here, but there's not. Because I live in the country, with nothing around me. And I don't have my license yet. It just sucks. And I probably complain a lot about it, but what am I supposed to do. I hate this life out here in the country. I went out to go for a walk yesterday and there were huge puddles everywhere. I couldn't even do that. I would have ran on the tredmill cept I wasn't in the mood for a tredmill run. I was in the mood to go for a nice walk. And today there's no possible way that I can do that, seeings how it's snowing.
Okay, I may like him, but I don't know. It's a weird thing. I may just think that I may like him, because I can talk to him about everything, and he won't judge me, and he's just here for me. Or I may be thinking right when I say that I think I like him. However, i'm now scared to like anybody, due to the fact of getting hurt in the past. So I really don't know, and I don't know what to even say to him, because I don't know what he'd say. And frankly, i'm quite scared.
So goodbye.
Love,
me.
P.S. I was gonna clean my room, but then I got high.
Yesterday was most likely the worst day of my life, I couldn't even talk to Jon for very long because it was freezing outside. Seeings how my cell doesn't work inside my house. And my regular phone doesn't work as of now [something happend to it, we don't get a dial tone.]
Okay so there's music playing downstairs and it's incredibly loud, I can here it over this music up here. And the floor is vibrating and it's giving me a head ache. And well, this day isn't starting off to well itself.
I really wish that there was something to do around here, but there's not. Because I live in the country, with nothing around me. And I don't have my license yet. It just sucks. And I probably complain a lot about it, but what am I supposed to do. I hate this life out here in the country. I went out to go for a walk yesterday and there were huge puddles everywhere. I couldn't even do that. I would have ran on the tredmill cept I wasn't in the mood for a tredmill run. I was in the mood to go for a nice walk. And today there's no possible way that I can do that, seeings how it's snowing.
Okay, I may like him, but I don't know. It's a weird thing. I may just think that I may like him, because I can talk to him about everything, and he won't judge me, and he's just here for me. Or I may be thinking right when I say that I think I like him. However, i'm now scared to like anybody, due to the fact of getting hurt in the past. So I really don't know, and I don't know what to even say to him, because I don't know what he'd say. And frankly, i'm quite scared.
So goodbye.
Love,
me.
P.S. I was gonna clean my room, but then I got high.