I'd Send The Pain Below
Much Like Suffocating
I feel like ripping all of my hair out right now. I hate the way I can be having a relatively good day and then come home and have it completely ruined.
Because I don't ever do anything
I'm sick of feeling like shit and being blamed for shit that no one else does. Of course, if someone doesn't do what they're asked, it should be up to Holly to do it. Of course. Just tell her to do it instead. At least that way it gets done. But then whoever was supposed to do it just won't get in trouble at all. That's always the way to solve problems.
Send Holly to do it
So one day Holly decides, fuck this. She doesn't want to do everyone's bitch work because they don't ever do anything when she asks. And she doesn't. But then Holly gets yelled at and screamed at and has her plans for the night ruined. She can't go over her Celina's house and hang out with her. Instead, she has to stay at home in a foul mood and do everyone's bitch work while feeling like complete shit.
And I'm sitting at the computer and contemplating going upstairs. But then I'd be a hypocrite. How can one person sincerely tell another not to do something because they know it's not the right thing, but then want so badly to do it themselves?
I've officially decided that I hate everything and everyone, including myself.
So I'll crawl in my shell and turn off every bit of emotion and hope that maybe some day when things are better I'll be able to turn it back on again
I feel like ripping all of my hair out right now. I hate the way I can be having a relatively good day and then come home and have it completely ruined.
Because I don't ever do anything
I'm sick of feeling like shit and being blamed for shit that no one else does. Of course, if someone doesn't do what they're asked, it should be up to Holly to do it. Of course. Just tell her to do it instead. At least that way it gets done. But then whoever was supposed to do it just won't get in trouble at all. That's always the way to solve problems.
Send Holly to do it
So one day Holly decides, fuck this. She doesn't want to do everyone's bitch work because they don't ever do anything when she asks. And she doesn't. But then Holly gets yelled at and screamed at and has her plans for the night ruined. She can't go over her Celina's house and hang out with her. Instead, she has to stay at home in a foul mood and do everyone's bitch work while feeling like complete shit.
And I'm sitting at the computer and contemplating going upstairs. But then I'd be a hypocrite. How can one person sincerely tell another not to do something because they know it's not the right thing, but then want so badly to do it themselves?
I've officially decided that I hate everything and everyone, including myself.
So I'll crawl in my shell and turn off every bit of emotion and hope that maybe some day when things are better I'll be able to turn it back on again