sick
i haven't talked to or emailed V since the last week of june. (commence with the cheering y'all because i know you want to) and although it's been difficult, it's also been good. seeing his wall post on facebook today, however, saying it's best this way makes me feel like i just got kicked in the stomach. i can feel my stomach rising into my throat thinking that after 5 years together life is better without me and that our last conversation will be one that was full of nothing more than screaming, tears, and ugliness and definitely no good-bye. tears at work are not good.