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[swtrthnwn]

i've lost my boyfriend to counter-strike. altho it is a fun game, and i am learning (his cs buddies are mean to me sometimes tho, they like to kill me just for fun). anyway. i'm sleepy. things are going ok. i need a job. like desperately. i don't want to work at the birth center anymore. i can't be around my mom that much anymore. i want to feel independent, and make money, and then be able to buy things. because i have no money, i feel i have no freedom. but i don't want a boring job. not an office job like i would normally get. i'm thinking about getting a nanny kind of job (live-out of course) or just really really regular babysitting. or maybe retail? at a nice store where i would get cool discounts. i like being nice to people. maybe victoria's secret, or white house/black market. i've never worked a "normal teenager" job like that, so i don't know if i'd like it. there's always waitressing too, tho i have no experience. my sister can get me an in tho, and they make tons of money. yeah, maybe i'll do that, because then i'd also have loads of time on my hands. hmmm... i wish i could spend more time at angel's, but his mom is old-fashioned and traditional and altho she loves me (she does call me "mi hija"), she doesn't like the idea of us sleeping together (so angel has to make sure he gets up and moves off the air-bed to the couch before she sees that we did, in fact, sleep together). but it's ok, i can understand. i'm just not used to it.

my throat just started hurting today. i hope i'm not getting sick. my dad was just sick, and really sick! i better have not got it from him, or he's in trouble.

i bought a pretty dress. very pretty. :-D