man oh man!!!!!
well lets see. dude i've been so emo lately, its crazy. on friday i got ditched by all my friends and i was so dummed out. i went to my grandmas and she knew i was upset and made me talk bout it. i started crying and just poured out all my frustrations out. i was just telling her how seeing most of my friends have boyfriends or are talking to someone sucks cuz i get left out. then my grandpa buts in and says, "if you lose weight, you'd be so more prettier." that was the tops of that. i freakin started balling uncontrolably. while this is all going larissa calls me and was like,"whats wrong with you?" i just totally told her how i felt bout everything. then i started crying again lol. after hearing that from my grandpa made me so sick to my stomach. my grandma made me eat cuz i didnt all day. then i came home and just relaxed and the words from my grandpa wouldnt leave my head. then later on that night, i got online and was reading larissas live journal and it says, "kenny asked me out." that was it for me. i freakin lost it again lol. its not that im jealous, i just wish i had someone too. i feel like a loser!!!! im 16 and never had a boyfriend. i know that GOD has someone awesome guy for me but the waiting freakin sucks dude!!!!!! well i ended up crying myself to sleep.
i woke up on saturday at 9:30 and had a half an hour to get ready for my brothers football game. i woke up and my eyes were like so puffy from crying. my grandma picked me up and then we were off. i was working in the snack shack and a lil while after larissa showed up. it was good to see her. i wanted to just hug her and cry. then after awhile we got bored of that and we left. we went to turn in our applications. we came by my house and got them and picked up bailey. on our way we went to target so bailey can fil out an application there. while waiting i got a carmal frappicino. it was delicious!!!!! then it was off to the mall. we turned in all our applications and then went to macys to all the make up counters. we went to the christian dior counter and we all got free make overs. it was awesome. it was a big change for me cuz i dont wear a lot of make up but it was cool. after that we left and we all went home. i waited around for larissa to call me. she did and i went over to her house and we left. we went and got hannah and then went to the pole hall. it was fun i guess. i played larissa and i suck!!!! ohhh well. then we went to weinersinchle. it was me larissa, kenny, hannah and 2 cowboy dudes. then brandon, chris and some girls showed up. we all decided to go to cold stone and hang out. so we all did. we hung out there for like ever it seemed. i felt kinda unconfortable cuz kenny was being a total jerk to me. i guess he was in a bad mood but still. then we left and i came home. i was so tired!!!!
i woke up on sunday and went to church. it was really good as usual. i freakin love going to church!!!! i get restless sometimes but i still like it. after church me, larissa, brian and dad went to applebees for dads birthday. i eat 4 cheese sticks and was full lol. then i came home and got things done that needed to be done.
well this week at school is homecoming and today was pajama day. being in my pj's made me so tired lol. i like slept in all my classes. after school i had an ortho appointment. man my teeth hurt SOOO bad!!! after that i came home and did my homework and then went over to laurens. we had a lil party for jaclyns birthday. then laurens mom took us to church. there were so many people there. i was happy lauren came seeing her and lance broke up she needed it. when we went inside it was so hard to find a place to sit. we got stuck in the back around people who wouldnt shut up. it was really frustrating!!! larissa and kenny wrestled around and lauren bailey and rigo talked. it was so distracting. ohhh well. well i have good news; lauren asked God into her heart!!!!! i've been praying for her for SOOOO long!!! i was so happy. on my way home talking to my dad, i started crying. i was really upset at larissa though. like today she told me that some guy said he wouldve never guessed she was a christian and it bothered her. then tonight at church when we're supposed to be leaders shes sitting there messing around. ohhh well its her own thing. neways im still happy lauren prayed the prayer!!!!
i think im being to really like someone. i dont want to but i just cant help it. like its a weird situation though. the more we talk and the more i find out we have in common makes me like him more. hes so cute, funny and a good christian boy!!!! its so hard to find a good christian boy im interested in. the only problem i feel im so out of his league. my friends say im crazy but thats just how i feel. i've been asking God to just guild my feelings.
well people i better get going to bed now...so leave me a comment, i never get ne:( lol. ohhh yea and remember JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!!
i woke up on saturday at 9:30 and had a half an hour to get ready for my brothers football game. i woke up and my eyes were like so puffy from crying. my grandma picked me up and then we were off. i was working in the snack shack and a lil while after larissa showed up. it was good to see her. i wanted to just hug her and cry. then after awhile we got bored of that and we left. we went to turn in our applications. we came by my house and got them and picked up bailey. on our way we went to target so bailey can fil out an application there. while waiting i got a carmal frappicino. it was delicious!!!!! then it was off to the mall. we turned in all our applications and then went to macys to all the make up counters. we went to the christian dior counter and we all got free make overs. it was awesome. it was a big change for me cuz i dont wear a lot of make up but it was cool. after that we left and we all went home. i waited around for larissa to call me. she did and i went over to her house and we left. we went and got hannah and then went to the pole hall. it was fun i guess. i played larissa and i suck!!!! ohhh well. then we went to weinersinchle. it was me larissa, kenny, hannah and 2 cowboy dudes. then brandon, chris and some girls showed up. we all decided to go to cold stone and hang out. so we all did. we hung out there for like ever it seemed. i felt kinda unconfortable cuz kenny was being a total jerk to me. i guess he was in a bad mood but still. then we left and i came home. i was so tired!!!!
i woke up on sunday and went to church. it was really good as usual. i freakin love going to church!!!! i get restless sometimes but i still like it. after church me, larissa, brian and dad went to applebees for dads birthday. i eat 4 cheese sticks and was full lol. then i came home and got things done that needed to be done.
well this week at school is homecoming and today was pajama day. being in my pj's made me so tired lol. i like slept in all my classes. after school i had an ortho appointment. man my teeth hurt SOOO bad!!! after that i came home and did my homework and then went over to laurens. we had a lil party for jaclyns birthday. then laurens mom took us to church. there were so many people there. i was happy lauren came seeing her and lance broke up she needed it. when we went inside it was so hard to find a place to sit. we got stuck in the back around people who wouldnt shut up. it was really frustrating!!! larissa and kenny wrestled around and lauren bailey and rigo talked. it was so distracting. ohhh well. well i have good news; lauren asked God into her heart!!!!! i've been praying for her for SOOOO long!!! i was so happy. on my way home talking to my dad, i started crying. i was really upset at larissa though. like today she told me that some guy said he wouldve never guessed she was a christian and it bothered her. then tonight at church when we're supposed to be leaders shes sitting there messing around. ohhh well its her own thing. neways im still happy lauren prayed the prayer!!!!
i think im being to really like someone. i dont want to but i just cant help it. like its a weird situation though. the more we talk and the more i find out we have in common makes me like him more. hes so cute, funny and a good christian boy!!!! its so hard to find a good christian boy im interested in. the only problem i feel im so out of his league. my friends say im crazy but thats just how i feel. i've been asking God to just guild my feelings.
well people i better get going to bed now...so leave me a comment, i never get ne:( lol. ohhh yea and remember JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!!