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gee... i went from just working... to working with driving classes ... to a full schedule of school at fort in the morning... than i got driving classes for 2 hours... that work.... wow... i am going to be so tired every day....well anyways... on top of that... my work isn't being very nice... people in my department are being bitches and talking about me behind my back and all i want to do is bitch them out and let them hear what i got to say... but i can't... cuz well i could get fired... than i wouldn't be able to get a cell phone... or anything like that... it really sucks... so many decisions... like... i want to get a car so that i don't have to stupid fucking bus... or keep asking my mom for a ride everywhere.... but i need a job to do that but .... i feel like quiting my job... cuz i don't like the pay and i don't like the people.... but than i also want to get a cell phone... which i will have to have a job... and well you know the rest...i also want to get my mom this thing that costs a lot for christmas but i will need money to do that... meaning i would need a job... .and well you know the rest there too...and now here is another prob i got.... ok... what do i do? i like this guy... he is joshs friend.... i have never met him yet... and each time we try.... he has family probs and can't make it .... or one of us misunderstand each other and miss each other by half an hour.... and like .... i want to tell him that i would like to be more than friends but its like if we can't even seem to meet each other now... than its never going to happen.... but like i know he likes me too cuz he is nothing like josh.... jesse would leave me notes online saying that he is sorry that he wasn't online when he said he would be.... he left me messages on my home phone saying sorry that he could make it to the mall... and its like he actually cares about me.... but grrr.... i don't know what to do.... and than like at work... there is a few guys that seem to have their eye on me and they are both 21 and cute... and like i know that one of sort of likes me since he keeps flirting and is always wanting me to be around to talk to him.... but i don't know what to do..... grrrr... i am just not having luck with guys... i wonder if its cuz i didn't forward that stupid forward in my emails.... oh well... i guess i will have to live with it... i can't change the past... i will just have to live each day wondering... what if.... grrr....if only i took my lunch half an hour later.... if only.....grrr.... well anyways....
grrr what else is going on in my life since the last time i updated.... umm... i went to the mall the other day... and hung out with a bunch of people.... it was cool... i got to see terry.... i get to see my sissy three times a week... lol... its so hilarious at driving school because... there is only 3 of us in our class well there is supposed to be 2 other girls but i guess they decided to blow some money away.... but anyways its just ashley, me and this really weird guy.... he looks like a geek...and our teacher isn't any better.... but yeah.... anyways... ashley and are always giggling in the class and the teacher thinks its so cool cuz like we are always happy which they like it ..... cuz they would have a really boring class... lol... but its an awesome class... ashley and i both got 95% on our quiz today....oh yeah... today when i went into school... i was so happy i got to see krista, josh, tabatha, and a bunch of other people.... that i missed so much this summer... :( but it was so good seeing them again.... but like anyways.... umm like i don't know what else to say besides sorry for not updating lately... but i will try more often... maybe while i am at work since i get to be on the computer at work.... supposedly doing training courses.... lol.... love you all....

~Shout outz~ Josh, Krista, Tabatha, Sissy, Terry, and everyone else i am missing.... peace, love and happiness... to you all....*hugs and kisses*