a little insight might be helpful...
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if certain things that have happened in the past had actually followed through and happened. As much as I believe we are all destined for something great, there are our choices that alter our destiny.
I don't want my friendships changing like the turn of the season anymore. I want a group of friends I can call my own. It has always been the same thing each year, and i'm over it. I am 23 and I want a friend to be my friend. Not someone who is going to get a girlfriend and not talk to me anymore. Or someone who is going to get upset and jealous and leave me because they feel I like them less. I want friends that I can surround myself any day of the week, day or night, and enjoy their company. I don't want to have to surround myself with alcohol to hang out.. I'm sorry, but the bar scene gets old, very fast. What happened to nights in, board games, and silly pictures and inside jokes created?
For once, I actually do feel like I might be on the right track with that. I do like the company of majority of the people I hang out with. However, minus drama it would be even better. I miss some really great friends from my past and I do want to reconnect with them. See how their lives are going and changing. And be a part of then again. But maybe that is something I have to get over in order to move on. I'm caught in a limbo, and would really enjoy some helpful insight from my LJ friends :)!
Let me know your thoughts, experiences, maybe something I can actually relate too.
Loves, Jessica
I don't want my friendships changing like the turn of the season anymore. I want a group of friends I can call my own. It has always been the same thing each year, and i'm over it. I am 23 and I want a friend to be my friend. Not someone who is going to get a girlfriend and not talk to me anymore. Or someone who is going to get upset and jealous and leave me because they feel I like them less. I want friends that I can surround myself any day of the week, day or night, and enjoy their company. I don't want to have to surround myself with alcohol to hang out.. I'm sorry, but the bar scene gets old, very fast. What happened to nights in, board games, and silly pictures and inside jokes created?
For once, I actually do feel like I might be on the right track with that. I do like the company of majority of the people I hang out with. However, minus drama it would be even better. I miss some really great friends from my past and I do want to reconnect with them. See how their lives are going and changing. And be a part of then again. But maybe that is something I have to get over in order to move on. I'm caught in a limbo, and would really enjoy some helpful insight from my LJ friends :)!
Let me know your thoughts, experiences, maybe something I can actually relate too.
Loves, Jessica