bday.
It's always a matter of who you surround yourself with. You will always have the friends that are crazy and fun, and always are the life of the party. Then you have the more serious let's get down to business, and have fun when we can, kind of friends... Then you just have the ones that are always there, no matter what.. And for some reason, I get a mixture of all of them, and in the end it all turns to shit.
Why can't I make the friendships that truly mean something. The people I can count on at 3 in the morning to come and pick me up drunk or sober in scottsdale, or I can call at 2 in the afternoon just to say HI without a reason... I mean seriously it's to the point now where I just don't care. I'm annoyed by people and their actions, and not to say that I'm all "mature" but to a level of maturity I am more mature than them all. I can't stand that people would even dare to raise their voice to me on my very own birthday, and demean me. They would criticize who or whom I'm not texting, to let them know I am okay.. as well as safe and have a ride home.. It's unnecessary for you to walk away, when we are "supposed" to be watching out for one another.. I'm sick of it, i'm sick of drama.. I'm sick of you. all three of you. You can take your selfish asses back to where you come from, and find clothing that not only fits you, but doesn't make you look like a slut, saying come rape me. And for the one that really didn't do anything, thanks for just thinking of yourself and if you look "good enough" after we had just been dancing and you have sweat dripping from your forehead..
I'm done with all of you.. I thought that you were my friends and would stand by me, but after last night and just turning your back on me, and not even giving me the decency of a phone call to make sure i'm okay, and that I wasn't mad or anything, you are seriously not the people I thought you were.
Goodnight..
just remember this isn't me being selfish, more or less just had expectations for you people and hoped that you would atleast make me feel special on my birthday like friends are suppossed to do..
I need new friends, and old friends to surround me. I really miss certain people, hopefully you know who you are.. Seriously let's catch up, i need a familiar face. ;)