firew0rks and yet c0nfusion ..
" MY WEAKNESS IS THAT I CARE TOO MUCH"
hey peoples; wow what a day lmao i woke up showered and thought i was just gunna go 2 da doctor on ocean avenue. but then i decided to chill with nessa and we went to her house and watched her bro play true crime. lmao lookin for show [ chow! ] lmfao insider. then me and her went to see her mommy in da factory nd we laughed our asses off. then we went to jersey gardens and she went with DJ so I called James lmao. thx buddie you`re the fcukin greatest. he cracks me up when i`m sad. then we ate at nathans and just looked around. i wanna go back to victorias secret. lmao. then she dropped me off home and me, krissy and mark went on broadway. went to DOTS and i got a cute wallet lol then we walked and I saw mike but i didnt know it was him lmao but aww he cute. `=) definetly a plus. i gotta chill with him one day. then we went to walgreens and what happened there stays between me, twin and mark. lmfao i love you guys mucho mucho.
then we came home and i got changed into my slutty clothes lmao and we went to see da fireworks. it was me, krissy, mark, tanya, dana, derrick, mike, pam, spiro, jenn, thea, etc. then i saw micheal and nessa cousin. i couldnt find lauren! ahh thats my italian sister right there. we connected at the hip. lol then mike jumped when da first firework came. it was hilarious. he thought he was gettin shot. lmfao. just mad fun. then i saw katie. i havent seen her or pam in a minute. nah since pam was single. but omg i saw an ex with his new boyfriend. lmao my ex turned gay! how fcukin queer is that. lmao whatever -_-
i dont know anymore. maybe i do care too much. my problem is i`m in love with someone who probably doesnt feel the same way. i thought after 3 fcukin years i would be moved on but i dont think so. and all my friends are like give it up and let him go but i cant cus everytime i try to he comes back in my life and i`m left there takin him back and gettin hurt all over again. maybe i`m the stupid one but i love him so much and i dont know what else to do. damn life sucks!