lost count of the days
had dinner with my could-have-been-mother-in-law. was looking forward to it until the shuttle was taking me closer and closer to the hotel. then i wasn't sure if i would be okay. i had to recompose myself a few times, but it was alright after. caught up with some stuff, went to eat sushi, gave her gifts - missed her a lot. :(
i spent the weekend +3 days in portland, or. it was a pretty awesome trip. when i arrived, christina was just on her way out to eat dinner so i checked in at the hotel and fell asleep while waiting for her to come back. later that night, we went out to a bar and had drinks and food when a random, clearly intoxicated guy comes up to talk to us. he got my number, left 3 voice messages and 2 text messages within the hour saying he loves me and will go down to socal to visit me, stalked us out to our cab, and cristina and i thought it was the last we'd see of him. this was not the case. thanks to cris' urging, i ended up spending the rest of my nights in portland with him. had i been single, this wouldn't have happened. clearly, my long-term relationship has done me some good. i don't know where i would have ended up in college if i had been single.
1st night: dinner at portland's fancy restaurant with the awesome 180 view of downtown and beyond. bar hopping afterward with some failed attempts. sundays are not good to drinkers. back to his cousin's place for some smokes and movie.
2nd night: tried to go to the beachfront park but the rail was late half an hour. ended up going to a biker bar, then tried to go to uptown billards for some pool but of course it was closed. i waited outside another bar for him to change out his bike with a car while another guy started up conversation with me. this guy was pretty cool - lived in venice for 6 yrs and moved back to portland for work. my guy then showed up and we went back to his place to smoke and watch a movie that we never finished. i did stay the night.
3rd night: cris and i had a movie date and he came and crashed it. i drank 2 beers at the movie and therefore was completely buzzed the couple hours later. restaurant hopped - bagdad restaurant, jolly rogers, and street vendor food. back to his place and took a bite out of a voodoo doughnut to claim it, apparently voodoo doughnuts is the best doughnut shop in town with prices ranging up to $7. my doughnut was chocolate topped with cocopuff cereals. the best? ... ehhh. i could do that to a krispy kreme doughnut too! anyway. finished the rest of the movie we started the night before and then went to bed.
do i like him? not really. the more time i spent with him, the less i was attracted. but i must say that it did make my trip more fun and complete. don't all singles trips have to have a bit a romance thrown in there somewhere to make it "successful?" not only that, it helped me stop thinking. it wasn't until i was on my way home that i became depressed (and needed a drink). maybe it was amplified by the fact that i was supposed to see The Mother.
besides this guy that kept me busy and sadly kept me away from cris at nights, we had a lot of fun shopping at the saturday market, going to tree-to-tree adventures for some ziplining and tree jumping, sampling cheese, hiking through a forest and then climbing trees to get to the base of the waterfall, stopping at beaches and estuaries, wine tasting, exploring a fish hatchery and getting completely lost.
the getting completely lost was actually not too much fun. we drove along the coast and tried to take another road back. the road was closed, but we thought the road closed signs are a bunch of bs and drove straight through them until we saw another immovable sign. we had to backtrack the half hour it took us to get there. -_-
all in all, i'm glad i took this trip. i saw a lot of portland and loved the city. i did things (like ziplining) that i've been wanting to do for so long and finally had the chance to. the air and scenery up there was gorgeous and the hike was so much fun. it's like being in the wilderness without really having to be. i'm so upset that both our cameras stopped working toward the end of the trip. with its good, of course, comes its bad. i think i'm becoming an alcoholic if i don't start watching myself. the beer up there is fabulous and i enjoyed all i had. i only say this bc on the plane ride back i was craving a drink. only alcoholics crave a drink right? i've never drank so much, so i'm not sure- i drank every day, smoked every night. did some things i shouldn't have done, why are humans so weak? although the trip was a success in widening my horizon and exploring the world, it was a big step back in the promise i made a couple weeks ago. it's not what i wanted. didn't i say that i was worth much more than this? why can't i help but to do what i do. maybe i shouldn't make excuses for myself and just admit that the choices i made were the choices i wanted to make, but where is the strength that i need to make the right choice, whether or not i want it? i'll have to work on that.
i spent the weekend +3 days in portland, or. it was a pretty awesome trip. when i arrived, christina was just on her way out to eat dinner so i checked in at the hotel and fell asleep while waiting for her to come back. later that night, we went out to a bar and had drinks and food when a random, clearly intoxicated guy comes up to talk to us. he got my number, left 3 voice messages and 2 text messages within the hour saying he loves me and will go down to socal to visit me, stalked us out to our cab, and cristina and i thought it was the last we'd see of him. this was not the case. thanks to cris' urging, i ended up spending the rest of my nights in portland with him. had i been single, this wouldn't have happened. clearly, my long-term relationship has done me some good. i don't know where i would have ended up in college if i had been single.
1st night: dinner at portland's fancy restaurant with the awesome 180 view of downtown and beyond. bar hopping afterward with some failed attempts. sundays are not good to drinkers. back to his cousin's place for some smokes and movie.
2nd night: tried to go to the beachfront park but the rail was late half an hour. ended up going to a biker bar, then tried to go to uptown billards for some pool but of course it was closed. i waited outside another bar for him to change out his bike with a car while another guy started up conversation with me. this guy was pretty cool - lived in venice for 6 yrs and moved back to portland for work. my guy then showed up and we went back to his place to smoke and watch a movie that we never finished. i did stay the night.
3rd night: cris and i had a movie date and he came and crashed it. i drank 2 beers at the movie and therefore was completely buzzed the couple hours later. restaurant hopped - bagdad restaurant, jolly rogers, and street vendor food. back to his place and took a bite out of a voodoo doughnut to claim it, apparently voodoo doughnuts is the best doughnut shop in town with prices ranging up to $7. my doughnut was chocolate topped with cocopuff cereals. the best? ... ehhh. i could do that to a krispy kreme doughnut too! anyway. finished the rest of the movie we started the night before and then went to bed.
do i like him? not really. the more time i spent with him, the less i was attracted. but i must say that it did make my trip more fun and complete. don't all singles trips have to have a bit a romance thrown in there somewhere to make it "successful?" not only that, it helped me stop thinking. it wasn't until i was on my way home that i became depressed (and needed a drink). maybe it was amplified by the fact that i was supposed to see The Mother.
besides this guy that kept me busy and sadly kept me away from cris at nights, we had a lot of fun shopping at the saturday market, going to tree-to-tree adventures for some ziplining and tree jumping, sampling cheese, hiking through a forest and then climbing trees to get to the base of the waterfall, stopping at beaches and estuaries, wine tasting, exploring a fish hatchery and getting completely lost.
the getting completely lost was actually not too much fun. we drove along the coast and tried to take another road back. the road was closed, but we thought the road closed signs are a bunch of bs and drove straight through them until we saw another immovable sign. we had to backtrack the half hour it took us to get there. -_-
all in all, i'm glad i took this trip. i saw a lot of portland and loved the city. i did things (like ziplining) that i've been wanting to do for so long and finally had the chance to. the air and scenery up there was gorgeous and the hike was so much fun. it's like being in the wilderness without really having to be. i'm so upset that both our cameras stopped working toward the end of the trip. with its good, of course, comes its bad. i think i'm becoming an alcoholic if i don't start watching myself. the beer up there is fabulous and i enjoyed all i had. i only say this bc on the plane ride back i was craving a drink. only alcoholics crave a drink right? i've never drank so much, so i'm not sure- i drank every day, smoked every night. did some things i shouldn't have done, why are humans so weak? although the trip was a success in widening my horizon and exploring the world, it was a big step back in the promise i made a couple weeks ago. it's not what i wanted. didn't i say that i was worth much more than this? why can't i help but to do what i do. maybe i shouldn't make excuses for myself and just admit that the choices i made were the choices i wanted to make, but where is the strength that i need to make the right choice, whether or not i want it? i'll have to work on that.