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hello journal.
i really can't express in words what these past two weeks have been like. everything has been so surreal, almost as if i was someone else watching my life from the outside.
it all started on thursday (march 30th). i received a phone call from a man named james tucker, who i knew when i lived in salinas and was a high school friend of my parents. he sounded disturbed and was anxious to get in contact with my mom. it seemed odd for him to be calling since we hadn't talked to him in so long. in the back of my mind i knew something was wrong with my dad. then my uncle (my mom's brother) called and said he heard some "disturbing" news about my dad and wanted to know if it was true or not. then my auntie (my favorite auntie :D) called and asked to talk to my mom and she sounded really serious which isn't usual for her. i asked her if something was wrong with my dad, but she wouldn't tell me anything. finally my mom came home frazzled with confusion because of all these random phone calls. she ends up calling james tucker and finding out that my dad had died in a car accident in new mexico the day before. i'm not usually one to cry, and i held myself together at least until i could get out of the house and talk to someone [that someone ended up being jason...but that is a different story] jess stopped by my house while i was out and brought me hot chocolate :D
when i got home my mom told me to pack my stuff because we were taking the first flight to new mexico. that whole night just seemed like a blur to me.i couldn't go to sleep so i stayed up cleaning my room. i was still in shock. it's hard to explain, but when something so unexpected happens, your whole body, your mind just becomes numb.
on friday my mom and i took bart to SFO to catch a 11 o'clock flight which we just barely made because we had to drop my brother off at school ect... the flight was about an hour and a half- 2 hours to denver where we had an hour lay-over before flying to Albuquerque. when we landed in Albuquerque it was around 5 new mexico time. we had basically just wasted the whole day traveling. my mom and i rented a car and checked into our hotel room. ironically there was a cheer convention in town that week and they were staying in all of the hotels (what luck, yeah?) we chilled in the hotel for an hour and then went out to eat. our waiter was too cute. i ordered a pina colada but then changed my mind and ordered an oreo milkshake but he had already made the pina colada so he gave it to me on the house. but then a different waiter comes to our table and brings another oreo shake which totally makes me feel horrible for wasting all their food.
we go back to the hotel for a couple of hours to wait for my sister and auntie to fly in from la at 11. it was nice getting to seem them especially my sister because i knew she needed someone to talk to and so did i.
ok..time for be. more thoughts to come tomorrow.
i really can't express in words what these past two weeks have been like. everything has been so surreal, almost as if i was someone else watching my life from the outside.
it all started on thursday (march 30th). i received a phone call from a man named james tucker, who i knew when i lived in salinas and was a high school friend of my parents. he sounded disturbed and was anxious to get in contact with my mom. it seemed odd for him to be calling since we hadn't talked to him in so long. in the back of my mind i knew something was wrong with my dad. then my uncle (my mom's brother) called and said he heard some "disturbing" news about my dad and wanted to know if it was true or not. then my auntie (my favorite auntie :D) called and asked to talk to my mom and she sounded really serious which isn't usual for her. i asked her if something was wrong with my dad, but she wouldn't tell me anything. finally my mom came home frazzled with confusion because of all these random phone calls. she ends up calling james tucker and finding out that my dad had died in a car accident in new mexico the day before. i'm not usually one to cry, and i held myself together at least until i could get out of the house and talk to someone [that someone ended up being jason...but that is a different story] jess stopped by my house while i was out and brought me hot chocolate :D
when i got home my mom told me to pack my stuff because we were taking the first flight to new mexico. that whole night just seemed like a blur to me.i couldn't go to sleep so i stayed up cleaning my room. i was still in shock. it's hard to explain, but when something so unexpected happens, your whole body, your mind just becomes numb.
on friday my mom and i took bart to SFO to catch a 11 o'clock flight which we just barely made because we had to drop my brother off at school ect... the flight was about an hour and a half- 2 hours to denver where we had an hour lay-over before flying to Albuquerque. when we landed in Albuquerque it was around 5 new mexico time. we had basically just wasted the whole day traveling. my mom and i rented a car and checked into our hotel room. ironically there was a cheer convention in town that week and they were staying in all of the hotels (what luck, yeah?) we chilled in the hotel for an hour and then went out to eat. our waiter was too cute. i ordered a pina colada but then changed my mind and ordered an oreo milkshake but he had already made the pina colada so he gave it to me on the house. but then a different waiter comes to our table and brings another oreo shake which totally makes me feel horrible for wasting all their food.
we go back to the hotel for a couple of hours to wait for my sister and auntie to fly in from la at 11. it was nice getting to seem them especially my sister because i knew she needed someone to talk to and so did i.
ok..time for be. more thoughts to come tomorrow.