A Little P.S.

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Ryan also messaged me Saturday apologizing for all the past crap that had been going on and told me that he wants to re-establish our friendship again. I have to admit that I have mixed feelings about it, but I'm glad he finally made the first move. I have mixed feelings about it because he's going to have to earn my friendship and trust back. It's not going to be easy, and I've heard him tell me that things have changed for good, but yet he went right back. I guess I'm just going to be skeptical until he proves it to me. It's also going to be a pretty bumpy road, and I'm not sure if I'm ready to have to deal with all of it again. Yet, it does feel pretty good to be getting a friend back. I'd hate to keep loathing my prom pics with him.... Well, maybe loathing isn't the right word, but it's all I can think of right now. And I feel bad for not seeming more excited about it all, it's just that my last memories of my "friendship" with him haven't been all that pleasant. It was always one-sided the last 2 years of it, and I refuse to have to put up with that again.

I hope he really has changed though. God knows he's always had so much going for him and so much potential, and it's time that he be able to revel in it rather than be bogged down the ways he has been and it be squandered because of a few bad decisions.

I guess only time will tell.