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I think I'm going to shoot myself...There is just more and more going on everyday and I just feel like shutting down. I just want to crawl into a hole and forget about everything for a while...I think I will be going to Georgia from June to August I really think I might need it, going to the beach and just letting go and dealing with all of this stuff that never seems to go away. I can't even think positive, maybe I'm depressed I just want to cry and sleep all the time, I'm stuck. I am trying to get an essay done, I have another one due, I have to read a book, I have finals coming up, I still don't have the Maxima and Kim is coming down the last week in May. Joy...I just want to run away I want to leave for Georgia right after my finals, but then again I am scared of what might or might not happen between Kim and Tim so of course I am going to worry about that whether I am here or there and it isn't magically going to disappear so what the hell, I guess I could just hang out with my boyfriends Miller and Jose and be ok...that's a good idea I'll just stay in a constant state of drunkeness...Thank God summer is coming...maybe this will be my summer of love. You know one of those summers with a love that you'll remember for your whole life. A time of laughter, fun and no stress with some tall, dark, handsome guy who gives you butterflies and makes you feel so good inside. Takes you for drives at midnight with the windows rolled down....