sad bear
for a while i never could really put my finger on why i disliked frats so much. sure the people in them are cool. sure i don't like to be tied down to a social organization cause i like to be free like that. but today, i found out why.
my brother is a freshman in babson university. currently, he is running for some frat, i don't remember the name, and it is very sad and embarrassing. i went around with him to meet some people, and when we went to the frat, he changed. he became this submissive little nothing that wanted to be accepted so badly; wanted to fit in; looked for times where he could indulge in conversation...with much eagerness...and so on.
when he went into the last few doors, i did not go in to meet the other people because i did not want to see him in such a sorry state. now, im not one to be embarrassed, but in this case, i was, just to be related to him. that someone related to me would stoop so low just to get into some club.....just makes me sad. truely, i have never really been disappointed in him, but after seeing how he is tonight, it seemed as though he had lived a fake life up till now, and he was showing his true colors before these social moguls.
what saddens me most is that there is nothing i can do. i can't tell him these things because he will not listen to me. he never has, even though i have been right many times in the past. one of the worst feelings i can feel is uselessness. although, perhaps this is a lesson for him to learn, yet, that does not guarentee that he will learn it. i guess it is his lot to not accept help, perhaps he will in the future. but for now, he knows not what he does. if i confront him, he will be even more steadfast against advice later.
he told his future frat buddies that he was going to some high school party, and one of them said he was going to go to this local college one. later, i went roaming, and snuck into the damn place. lo and behold, his frat bros walked right by me, i have no idea if some of them recognized me or not. 10 mins and i found something...i don't know what his deal is. hopefully jordan will learn.
to end, i leave a quote isaac white said that'll change my life: "don't wait for chances...make them."
my brother is a freshman in babson university. currently, he is running for some frat, i don't remember the name, and it is very sad and embarrassing. i went around with him to meet some people, and when we went to the frat, he changed. he became this submissive little nothing that wanted to be accepted so badly; wanted to fit in; looked for times where he could indulge in conversation...with much eagerness...and so on.
when he went into the last few doors, i did not go in to meet the other people because i did not want to see him in such a sorry state. now, im not one to be embarrassed, but in this case, i was, just to be related to him. that someone related to me would stoop so low just to get into some club.....just makes me sad. truely, i have never really been disappointed in him, but after seeing how he is tonight, it seemed as though he had lived a fake life up till now, and he was showing his true colors before these social moguls.
what saddens me most is that there is nothing i can do. i can't tell him these things because he will not listen to me. he never has, even though i have been right many times in the past. one of the worst feelings i can feel is uselessness. although, perhaps this is a lesson for him to learn, yet, that does not guarentee that he will learn it. i guess it is his lot to not accept help, perhaps he will in the future. but for now, he knows not what he does. if i confront him, he will be even more steadfast against advice later.
he told his future frat buddies that he was going to some high school party, and one of them said he was going to go to this local college one. later, i went roaming, and snuck into the damn place. lo and behold, his frat bros walked right by me, i have no idea if some of them recognized me or not. 10 mins and i found something...i don't know what his deal is. hopefully jordan will learn.
to end, i leave a quote isaac white said that'll change my life: "don't wait for chances...make them."