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...Are you all done proclaiming your so-called 'greatness' now?
I have a question - for those of you that are sane, anyway.
Would you choose to live a fairytale that granted something you always wanted or wished for if you knew reality would at one point strip it away from you and you would then be forced to live without it? Do you consider it worth the risk to indulge in something fleeting and enjoy it while it lasts or would you just accept reality from the start to avoid complicating things and experiencing that inevitable loss?
You could say it's writing research, though partially mere curiosity, in a way. Nonetheless, any input is welcome.
[ Private ]
...I knew I had been foolishly ignoring something. I'm sure Chrono didn't mean to bring it up indirectly, but I'm almost glad that he did. Why hadn't I stopped to think about it sooner? ...Goddammit, I'm making everything ten times more complicated this way.
And if I take anything back or change things now, she's going to be upset and probably confused. I was the one doing the pushing, dammit. If I'd just accepted what she wanted all those months ago, this wouldn't be a problem now. ...However, that's irrelevant now. And I'm not sure how to handle this anymore. How many more mistakes must I make before I do something right for a change?
We can't be like this back at home. It's impossible. ...Unless I warped reality through writing. But I swore I did not want to be like bastard of a story-spinner and abuse that power. ...And if the bookmen were to find out, I could very well lose my hands if they don't approve.
I told her that we should go back to being our true selves. And I meant it. The story is over. ...So why am I second-guessing it now? Because we're stuck in some warped city that gave her human form again? ...No, that was Rue's doing. Her sacrifice to Ahiru. I...gave her nothing. I can't even protect her.
...I'm only being selfish.
[ /Private ]
[ ooc: Feel free to answer the question, if you like. Does it have an ulterior motive to it? Maaaaybe. But he's not about to say so. :P Oh, and Opera residents/friends, particularly those that know him well, might have noticed that he's been even more distant and withdrawn than usual the past couple days. ]
I have a question - for those of you that are sane, anyway.
Would you choose to live a fairytale that granted something you always wanted or wished for if you knew reality would at one point strip it away from you and you would then be forced to live without it? Do you consider it worth the risk to indulge in something fleeting and enjoy it while it lasts or would you just accept reality from the start to avoid complicating things and experiencing that inevitable loss?
You could say it's writing research, though partially mere curiosity, in a way. Nonetheless, any input is welcome.
[ Private ]
...I knew I had been foolishly ignoring something. I'm sure Chrono didn't mean to bring it up indirectly, but I'm almost glad that he did. Why hadn't I stopped to think about it sooner? ...Goddammit, I'm making everything ten times more complicated this way.
And if I take anything back or change things now, she's going to be upset and probably confused. I was the one doing the pushing, dammit. If I'd just accepted what she wanted all those months ago, this wouldn't be a problem now. ...However, that's irrelevant now. And I'm not sure how to handle this anymore. How many more mistakes must I make before I do something right for a change?
We can't be like this back at home. It's impossible. ...Unless I warped reality through writing. But I swore I did not want to be like bastard of a story-spinner and abuse that power. ...And if the bookmen were to find out, I could very well lose my hands if they don't approve.
I told her that we should go back to being our true selves. And I meant it. The story is over. ...So why am I second-guessing it now? Because we're stuck in some warped city that gave her human form again? ...No, that was Rue's doing. Her sacrifice to Ahiru. I...gave her nothing. I can't even protect her.
...I'm only being selfish.
[ /Private ]
[ ooc: Feel free to answer the question, if you like. Does it have an ulterior motive to it? Maaaaybe. But he's not about to say so. :P Oh, and Opera residents/friends, particularly those that know him well, might have noticed that he's been even more distant and withdrawn than usual the past couple days. ]