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I am screwing myself into a giant hole. Things seem to be going great and then I ask a question and I get annoyed and worried at the answer. So, Aaron is at college. He is meeting lots of new people and he has girl friends. That's not a problem; I don't mind that. What I do mind, is that I A)Had no idea, until about a week ago. B) Found out because some girl was texting him. C)He doesn't think it's a big deal. Okay, so it's not that big of a deal, but this one girl Melinda-gave him her number. I'm not stupid. I know girls. If we want something, we will stab each other in the back to get it. Aaron, doesn't get that. So he keeps thinking that I'm not trusting him....nooooooo I just don't trust that Bimbo who keeps texting him. That's what I don't trust-or the fact that he read the messages to me instead of just letting me read them myself. I can't help but be suspicious-I'm only human. I don't trust her. Why does Aaron need her number anyway? Ya know, I'm not threatened by any other girl-but her. There's just a weird feeling in me about her. Perhaps, she will cause me to go insane and thus will be my "inevitable." Yes Ben, I'm starting to think it's inevitable again. I know I'm probably pushing Aaron over the limit with this, but with all my guy friends-he has known everything about that. I've told him all my status' with them; what I truly think about them and why I would never date them. He doesn't tell me anything! It drives me insane! So he leaves everything to my imagination....I can't stand this. I want college-so I can throw back into his face what this feels like. Yes I realize, that sounds immensely childish-but I'm still not over the entire St. Thomas Summer Academy, so this extra little perk-doesn't help one damn bit. Call me childish-but please, I'd prefer actual advice. I don't want to lose my boyfriend; but at the same time, I just don't know how to get it through his skull that I know girls. I know how bitter and persistent we can be...and THAT is what worries me.